wowww it's been a while!!! well, here it goes.

Since ross has been gone, with no offense to him, everything has been wonderful. I can sleep in a bed instead of on the FLOOR, i can do what i want, when i want without inflicting on someone else's personal space, and it's just been fantastic. i mean, given, in a few months i'll have roomates again and ( Read more... )

so the red sox game was very fun, i got to hang out with a dozen or so work friends before and after; it was an amazing time (even though the sox got dumpd on, haha ( Read more... )

So I come back to MA to visit June 4th! I'm really excited, i hope i can see everyone i want to and do everything i couldnt in January because of certain restrictions and the freezing weather and such. I'm staying through the 13th, so i'm hoping to cram as much into those days as i can ( Read more... )

Take Cover - Acceptance
The Letter - Acceptance
Over You- Acceptance
Permanent - Acceptance
It Dwells In Me - All that Remains
Soraya - Animals as Leaders
Inamorata - Animals as Leaders
Into the Flood - As Tall as Lions
Lose it - Atreyu

Stockholm Syndrome - B 182
Down - B 182
All of This - B 182
Icarus Lives - Bulb
April Fool's Song - Bulb

The Venom Inside - ( Read more... )

Almost a week into May now, i am completely satisfied with the way everything has turned out. Now sean is coming out to live here (at least sean, hopefully a few more people come too ;) ) and he's coming out in mid august. I'm flying out to MA in June to visit everyone and see how it's all going, then I'm coming back here to work straight through ( Read more... )

i've been working a lot, working out, and running every day. there's nothing else to do here.

"it's over ( Read more... )

seven pounds.
wow. what an amazing movie.

I sat there and it was the first movie in ages where, legitamitally, i cried. i cried in front of my family, completely and openly; i felt no shame. i loved it.

What an amazing movie. From now on, I refuse to put myself first. Others will always come before I do. Life is more important than self-advancement ( Read more... )

"hence the realization upon coming home to CA, seeing it for what it was, and morphing my altered, dysfunctional lifestyle. I cant wait for brooke to come here, to start our lives together, for my family to eventually get here, and to complete my life. it's all i need. and it's all a matter of time (i would hope)."

that was almost 3 months ago; and ( Read more... )

what doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.

so I last updated in detail 4 months ago, to the day actually. i regret everything social i've done here, in CA, since then. It diverted my long-term goals, undermined my ability to make good choices, and laid to rest and reset any progression made on many fronts since i've gotten here. I've made many ( Read more... )