Comments | ankhorite: Again With The Butterflies

ankhorite

Again With The Butterflies

Jul 23, 2009 16:10

Echhh, still depressed and still consoling myself with butterflies. ( personal and gardening stuff... )

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tanteterri July 23 2009, 21:48:37 UTC

I'm a firm believer of better living through chemistry. Get thee to the doctor! I went through the same thing - very depressed and rationally knew that there was no reason. Had to be chemical.

Hope you are feeling more sprightly soon.

cerebralpig July 23 2009, 23:16:25 UTC

Seeing the doc is a wise move. It sounds like you're going through a very tough time. Grief is never easy. (((Hugs)))

labyris July 24 2009, 00:57:10 UTC

Hey, hope you get some help. Do whatever it takes, it is your life to live, not simply to endure. BTW, I sent you 2 emails over the past couple of weeks. Did you get either of them? Hugs to you!

Missing mails ankhorite July 24 2009, 15:43:30 UTC

WTF? You're the second person to tell me that today.

I will give my inbox a thorough toss and if they aren't there, they are probably stuck in the university's forwarding system, which happens a couple of times a year. Then they will all arrive in a giant glop, but my email program puts them in order the day they were sent, not the day they arrive, so sometimes I miss seeing the latecomers show up.

Agh! ((( Lab )))

Re: Missing mails labyris July 24 2009, 15:51:15 UTC

To help you sleuth, one was sent July 12 in response to your July 4 email to me. The other one was sent July 21 to your LJ email from your profile page. Won't do that again, because even though I have a record on LJ that I sent it, I cannot retrieve it to read it. So who knows what it said!

diggerlicious July 24 2009, 14:15:13 UTC

I believe in chemicals too, as in, when you need a plumber, you call a plumber! However, I'm also a firm advocate for the "big long cry", which can be coupled with crawling into bed for three days and sobbing to your heart's content. I think we put too much stock into putting on a brave face, which means true feelings just simmer to boiling point in that place where they hide. Having a huge long howling cry mixed in with some well-needed self pity is cathartic. Maybe instead of chemistry to make us feel better there should be chemistry to induce such a state, so we can then climb out of the stinking pit.

Good Cry Theory ankhorite July 24 2009, 15:38:39 UTC

Well, I just can't pin down why I'm feeling this way. Ace left us and I am deeply sad about that, but that was almost three months ago (ow, even typing that hurts) and can't justify this sudden collapse into lability.

Or maybe it can. I'll tell the doc.

Re: Good Cry Theory diggerlicious July 24 2009, 16:16:48 UTC

Lisa, I think the deeper the hurt, the longer it can take to catch up. Mourning and loss don't magically dissipate after some artificial standard objective time frame. Don't forget to keep an eye on loldogs, it can usually induce a smirk from the deepest depths of despair. Many hugs from me and Digger and Balou (and I guess Zero would want to join in on that too).