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anjenue

Birthdays, Changes, and Childhood

Aug 01, 2005 19:00

Happy birthday, lysrouge!!!Lily is one of the most awesome people I know -- she's sweet and fun and I always have a lovely time talking to her. Her Weasley worship is contagious, and she's gotten me hooked on a million and one things, from het to Queer As Folk and everything in between. She's a fantastic fandom presence, always with great ideas, meta and ( Read more... )

me:tmi, school, blather, me:health, holiday:birthday, me:childhood, me:self, love, friends, family

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kaysha August 2 2005, 00:42:01 UTC

Thank you for sharing that story with us, for telling us about yourself. :)

(I'd write more, but I'm in a really.. weird.. mood. And eehh, I can't think of any books; I've always liked books, and I read soooo, soooo many when I was a child/teenager (this has kind of changed - unfortunately), but I don't think they *really* shaped me. (Or maybe they did? ...) Hmm. Oh, but.. yeah.. there is one: The Brothers Lionheart by Astrid Lindgren. It's one of the most beautiful books ever written, IMO. Oh, oh. Thinking about it makes me suddenly feel all sad.. :/)

anjenue August 2 2005, 05:10:18 UTC

Thank you for slogging through it, love. I really appreciate it. ♥

Ooh. I shall have to go look that one up. Thanks for the mention of it. I do love beautiful sad books. :)

idleleaves August 2 2005, 01:21:09 UTC

But it's just...it's made me so...submissive and afraid to stand up for myself and convinced of my own lack of self-worth that it's been really...damaging to me, I think.Blargh, yes, and you know, sometimes I think that the impossibly high standards completely contribute to that. I don't know if it's the same with you, but with me, it was a combination of having a mother who would push and push and push until I cracked and having a father who constantly built his kids up with how smart we were supposed to be and how well we'd do in life, then turn around and call us down to the lowest if we brought home a 92 on a test ( ... )

anjenue August 2 2005, 16:52:31 UTC

Yeah, the ridiculous standards really make it impossible to be happy with yourself, and when you're not happy with yourself, it's hard to believe you're worth anything, and then words become meaningless and all you're left with is this feeling of worthlessness. It's not a fun thing at ALL.

Ooh, The Last Unicorn! You know they're making a new movie of it? I'm so so so excited. Also, eeee, I think I read Different Dragons. I can't remember though.

tehlils August 2 2005, 01:33:27 UTC

First off, big thanks for the birthday wishes. ♥. You're absolutely wonderful for saying such nice things about me. *mwah ( ... )

anjenue August 2 2005, 16:54:30 UTC

♥ I know you're there for me, darling. It's part of what keeps me going with a smile. :)

Eeee Maniac Magee! I read the thing about him being allergic to pizza and about his facility with knots and I was like OMG!!! (Even though I'm obviously not a wandering boy, hahaha.) And YES, the Little House series. I really need to buy all of those because they're so bloody good. And The Giver as well. So many wonderful books, so little shelf space. *sighs*

tehlils August 2 2005, 17:41:20 UTC

*sighs* I know. *pokes shelf space* We need somewhere like spinner's end, but bigger. Also? I sooo wrote Spinner's End into one of my rps at the leaky. ROFL.

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anjenue August 2 2005, 16:58:16 UTC

Ohhhhh, Goldielove, you are so so so sweet to me. Thank you so much. *hugs tight*

THE NAUGHTIEST GIRL!!! I love that series! I have that one and the Faraway Tree series in two hardcover books and OMG so great. Nobody here's heard of Enid Blyton though! *sighs* So sad.

♥!!!

starrysummer August 2 2005, 02:05:58 UTC

For the longest time, I thought that the more I could close off my emotions, not show anyone, pretend they didn't exist, the happier I'd be. It wasn't until my freshman year of college where I ended up keeping too much inside and bursting that I realized that it's not weakness to show emotion and it's certainly not weakness to feel emotion.

I'm definitely the sort of person who wants to put career first, family-building second, but at the same time, that's just as tricky as finding the right person. Most of the time accomplishment and external successes aren't nearly enough to sustain us, so it does come down to having a support system you can rely on and being happy with yourself.

You really have come so far in realizing all this, and it's tough to admit to this feeling stuff and forget that life isn't some race or treadmill or contest.

*hugs*

I'm so totally here for you. <333 Like whoa, dude, like whoa ( ... )

anjenue August 2 2005, 17:00:18 UTC

*loves* You're wonderful, Robin. Thank you so so much.

Ahaha my sister was the Babysitters' Club reader in my family, but I used to gack all her books and devour them quickly as soon as she finished with them. I was a Saddle Club girl. Kinda like the Babysitters' Club but with girls who rode horses instead. *giggles* I was horse-OBSESSED when I was young, man.