[Audio]

[angha_firebird]

B...Bobby?

[There's horror and traumatized fear in her tone.]

Zachariah?

Zhaneel! Varric...

[She isn't bothering to withhold her cries, or whimpers of pain. She had done something terrible. Horrible. She deserved to be punished. She deserved...]

I am... so sorry...

[Crying can be heard before she is able to switch off the audio. She doesn't

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[heavyweaponsbot]

... What is the matter with you?

[audio]

[angha_firebird]

[Have a petrified whimper, and a lengthy pause as she tries with all her strength to say words.]

I...

[A deep breath--trying to find calm.]

You... killed me. You and B...Bobby and... a green man. But... I think... it was to protect people. From me? I... I do not... I have never...

I am so sorry...

[She doesn't care if he hates her. Shuns her. She would shun her, too.]

[audio]

[heavyweaponsbot]

What are you talking about?

[He didn't kill any humans during that madness.]

[audio]

[angha_firebird]

[Her voice is so strangled and soft it's barely above a whisper.]

I... was not... human... at the time...

[She simply waits for it. Waits for everything to click into place. His horror. His scathing remarks. They had to come at some time, didn't they? She could take it. She had developed a thick skin, after all. She needed to get an earful from somebody.]

[Audio]

[sayhitobianca]

[Well. This isn't good. Varric hasn't seen anything on the journals about her, except a post that said she was dead. He knows she was sick, though, and he knows what- what had happened to him, so he can only assume the worst.]

Whatever you're apologizing for, Birdie, it's not your fault.

[Now if only he thought that was true for himself.]

[Audio]

[angha_firebird]

Varric...

[What a relief to hear his voice!]

It... it is, though. I... I did... horrible things...

[Maybe.... maybe she was dangerous. To her friends. Maybe this madness would eat at her again. What then?]

[Audio] - Sealed to Aara

[sayhitobianca]

That wasn't you, Birdie. That was the illness. You can't be held responsible for things you couldn't control.

Nothing you did was your fault, you hear me? Anyone who tells you different is going to have to answer to Bianca.

[Audio]

[angha_firebird]

...Bianca...?

I still have yet to meet... Bianca.

[Though maybe she shouldn't meet her. Aara didn't know. She was so confused. Her memories just returned and they are all chaotic and filled with blood and pain and sadness. Her heart hurt...]

[Video]

[mister_10_below]

[Bobby clicks on the video, and there's obvious concern on his face. He's worried, both for her, and out of fear that she'll hate him for what he did to her.

There's also a hint of relief, because he'd been so freaked out she wouldn't come back.]

Aara...

[He can't do this over these things.]

Where are you? Please?

[Audio]

[angha_firebird]

[Her crying is inescapable when she sees Bobby's face--hears his voice. She can't let him see the tears streaming down her face. Her blotchy skin. She's shaking, afraid to respond, yet wants to so desperately. Finally...]

I am so... so sorry, Bobby. I promised and I did not keep my promise and I am not a good friend and I h-hurt people--

[Her cried intensify until she desperately holds her breath. She doesn't want him to hear. To feel sorry for her. She hurt him. She hurt their friendship.]

I'm so sorry...

[She's too distracted to answer his question just yet.]

[Video] --> [Commentlog]

[mister_10_below]

No, Aara, don't think that. You are a good friend, you-

[And he cuts off, because, yeah, he needs to do this in person.

It doesn't really matter that she doesn't respond to his question, because he'd already been heading for her room.

When he gets there, he knocks at her door.]

Aara? Are you in there? It's Bobby.

[Commentlog]

[angha_firebird]

[She jumps at the knock, then crumples when she hears Bobby's voice calling out to her. Drawing her legs up to her chest, Aara hides her pained expression behind her knees as her shoulders shake with trembling sobs. She tries to calm herself--to breathe--so she can call out to him.]

I... I am here...

[She hadn't locked the door.]

You can come in... if you want to...

[She honestly does not expect he would want to.]

[helluvachin]

[Now this certainly grabs his attention.]

Aara!

[And he hisses in pain. Shouldn't jerk like that with healing ribs.]

What's wrong? What happened?

Aaaaaangsts FOREVER

[angha_firebird]

Zachariah?

How... how do you feel?

[Now that she remembers, her worry grows exponentially. Pain tears at her chest as she remembers what she did to him. How she hurt him.

And he wasn't even aware it was her.]

I... I have something awful to tell you. [A small whimper escapes.]

You're not going to like it...

OM NOM NOM ANGST

[helluvachin]

I hurt but I'm alive so I guess I can't complain.

[Not going to like? Holy crap she must be hurt after all! Why wouldn't she tell him that?]

What's wrong? Are you hurt? Where are you? I can help help get you to the infirmary.

XD LOL <3 ;_;

[angha_firebird]

No...no...

I... I am not hurt.

[A heartbroken pause.]

You were...

[She she was the one who hurt him...]

OOC: Let us presume that Alex knows she's ~something~ but not what exactly, nor has he said anything

[allthesame2me]

[Alex had spoken to Aara in a few days, having given her a fairly wide variety of dresses to keep her entertained for at least a while.

However, to think that anyone could ignore her panicked and horrified cries right now was unfounded.]

Aara .. Aara, sweetheart, what's wrong??

[Audio] OKIES~

[angha_firebird]

Alex...

[She remembers him. Remembered his name. His kindness. Aara hangs her head, dazed and horrified as bile fills her mouth as memory after memory resurfaces.]

I... I...

[A whimper, followed by a soft, keening noise of mourning and horrors untold.]

I am worse than the oath-less...

[Video]

[allthesame2me]

[Alex changes his feed over to video, his concern more than apparent on his face. He didn't know who the oath-less were, but there was no way that they were a good thing.]

Aara, what happened?

[He has heard about a variety of deaths, but the specifics have certainly left much to be desired. He has no earthly idea what she is so upset about.]

[Video]

[angha_firebird]

[Her feed switches over to video as well, and Aara just... stares blankly at her screen for a moment or two. Then her expression crumbles to pieces.]

I hurt someone. A friend. More than one friend.

How... how could I do such a thing?

What will they think of me, now?