New Horizons Part 1 (bigbang)
Title: New Horizons
Author: angelzfurys
Fandom: Supernatural RPF
Gene: Slash
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 23,982 (total)
Warnings: Homophobia, Extreme dub-con bordering on non-con (some may consider it non-con), Sex between minors, Mentions of abuse, Mpreg, AU time line
Summary: Things are going well for Jared and Jesnsen on Supernatural when a secret from their shared past gets out and changes their lives and the life of someone very unexpected.
Disclaimer: I don’t own supernatural, or any of its fine actors or their relatives. I do not presume to know their beliefs and opinions, those of this story are completely made up and fictional. I don’t have anything against any of the people in this story or their real life families, they are probably really wonderful people. I just needed a villain and used their names, again all beliefs and opinions are completely fiction. This story does contain a scene of underage extreme dub-con that borders on rape, and some may call it that so please be warned.
Authors Notes: I suck at summeries but I do hope you all enjoy this story! Also I do realize that Teen Mom didn't air until 2009 but I needed to mention something relevent so I bumped the year down to 2008 to fit my time line. Also I made Jensen two years younger as well. And lastly in this AU men can become pregnant.
Special Mentions: A very big thank you to my wonderful and very patient artist bluefire986 who should be a saint for waiting for me to get through will all my problems before posting. To the bigbang Mods for waiting on me as well a big thanks to them as well.
For my beta kinkyqu33nspn a big thanks! Aslo to the very wonderful and last minute life savers and betas vyperdd and buffenator for giving me that last final look over and corrections you are very much appreciated and helpful, thank you!
For the cheer leaders who helped pick me up and encourage me when I was down and very stressed I thank you and wish I could send you all pie for your kind words and virtual hugs! Thank you to locknkey, milly_gal, and saltandburnboys I am honored to have you as friends and someday hope I can repay you for your kindness.
Art By: bluefire986
Jensen knew that his life would change and he would be in for some emotional thrashing the day he had met Jared Padalecki. Eric Kripke had just hired him to play the role of Dean Winchester in his new young adult show Supernatural. They had wanted him for the part of Sam Winchester originally, but he had liked the idea of Dean better and Kripke had been impressed with him after the reading and had offered to have him as Dean. They had just agreed when along came Jared and he had been perfect for the role of Sam. He had been both excited and nervous to meet the man that would play his brother on screen for hopefully many years to come. Despite his awkwardness around new people he had instantly liked Jared and Jared had liked him. It took no time at all for Jared to worm his way into his life and heart as if he had been there forever.
Jared had taken the lead in every step of their evolving relationship since day one and Jensen liked it that way, at least originally. But lately, he had been a little uneasy and nervous with all the time that passed that they were together because Jared had been getting a bit more free with his public displays of affection that went beyond costars. Jared was also denying things less and less about the two of them and teasing the fan base more than usual about what they were to each other. It was beginning to scare Jensen. They were both in the closet for very good reasons, even if he hadn’t shared all of them with Jared yet, who was more accepting of himself then he himself was. He wasn’t sure he’d ever be able to share everything, but he would try if they continued with their relationship. Jensen needed to figure out what was up with Jared and why he was being more open when they had agreed to privacy.
It had taken him his first year of filming just to admit out loud that he was not as into women as he lead the public to believe, and only to Jared that he did indeed like Jared that way in which he couldn’t name until almost two years into their relationship. Jared had agreed to take things as slowly as Jensen wanted as long as they could stay together. Filming in Vancouver was more private then in LA and they could save money on having a house rather than apartments. They could both be at the instant beck and call of the studio and they would live like roommates to the public eye. Of course that would also allow Jared to slowly woo Jensen and for them to work on any and all intimate parts of their budding relationship in ultimate privacy. Jensen had been good with light touches and kissing when they met but with Jared’s patience that had moved on to heavy petting and clothed frottage coupled with heavy making out by the middle of the third year of filming. Jared had come back to Vancouver earlier from the midseason hiatus of season three and Jensen, with some celebratory alcohol had finally completely slept with Jared for the first time.
Any time he had dared to have sex since his first time he had always topped. He liked it enough but he liked the idea of bottoming even more but his paralyzing fear of his first experience had held him back from ever actually doing it. With Jared it had been different. He was still scared but he actually trusted Jared, and knew that if he really wanted to stop Jared would have in an instant and not said anything about it. Over the three years that they had been together (yes he started counting when they had started filming) he had gotten to know Jared better than any other person in his life so far. It was something that he hadn’t had the chance or the courage to do before because of his shyness and other events in his life. Jared was kind and so very patient and made a lot of his feelings of shame and self-loathing lessen so much that he didn’t really think about them as often anymore. So, with some liquid courage and a giant leap of faith he had let Jared top him. He hadn’t been disappointed and it opened his eyes to what the future could be with Jared by his side.
Jared had been very surprised but very willing, taking his time and soothing him at every turn. Jared had worked him up for a good half an hour, making out on the couch before taking him up to his bedroom. He was gentle and set his body on fire touching him everywhere, slowly opening him at the same time so that he hardly realized he was ready when Jared finally got on top of him. Jared had chosen missionary so that he could see Jared at all times and Jared would be able to see his reactions and back off if he needed. He’d almost cried in relief and happiness and pleasure when Jared was finally seated fully inside him. He hadn’t panicked and it actually felt pretty good, nothing like the first time or any time he had tried to finger himself in the past.
Jared had made the whole thing about him and his pleasure, taking nothing for himself until he had been thrown over the cliff of ecstasy and climaxed so hard he almost whited out. Jared had stayed with him, held him and soothed him through the aftermath and continued to be the most affectionate lover in the world. He had actually had a mini break down the next day. Jared had noticed and asked but didn’t push him when he’d blown if off, at least he’d told Jared so.
After that sex between them had become more and more frequent as each time replaced the memories of the first with a better experience. Jared would still be gentle and perfect but as they got further into it he slowly changed things up and made him push his limits but never so far he was uncomfortable. Nothing that was too outrageous was tried or even suggested and Jared always backed off when Jensen showed signs or said he wasn’t comfortable. Jared was a saint for putting up with him but he was getting better and Jared seemed to know it. Just last week Jared had managed to make him comfortable enough to be taken from behind and stay in the position until they both came.
Just that morning Jared had woken him with a blow job and they had a quickie in the shower. It seemed that the day was going to go well but that proved to be a very different story.
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Seventeen
Issue 12
December 2007
Star of hit WB teen series a father!
Seventeen has gotten an exclusive that Jared Padalecki, the young star of the WB hit series Supernatural is a father. Sources have confirmed from certified documents that in a recent battery of tests for cast members to film the show, Padalecki’s child came to light. Padalecki, who has a large fan following stemming from his days on another WB show Gilmore Girls, isn’t married and no mention of a child has been made before. Supernatural is in its third year with Padalecki at the helm with costar Jensen Ackles. Representatives for Jared Padalecki and the WB have yet to contact Seventeen.
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Present
There was a great commotion as a group of people came hurrying up the road towards the set they were shooting on. The group was so loud that the director called for them to cut and the crew gathered together around the camera and director until the group reached them. In the group was Kripke, Singer, Manners and the studio lawyers, as well as the WB CEO not to mention Jared’s agent and a lot of other official looking people.
Jared’s heart rate picked up and he tried to keep his breathing regular as worry and nervousness ran through him. Whatever was going on wasn’t good, from the amount of big wigs and the serious expressions and from the lack of Jensen’s agent it involved only him being in or the trouble. He tried to think of anything that he had done that would warrant such a gathering of people and that they wouldn’t wait until the day’s shooting was over to talk, opting instead to interrupt the entire schedule. He waited next to Jensen as the group talked with the director, too nervous to go over and see what all the fuss was about.
“Jared, we need you for a moment.” Kripke was the one that summoned him over to the little powwow.
Jensen gave him a quick pat on the shoulder before he headed over trying to act like this kind of thing happened every day. He was sweating so hard he was surprised that he hadn’t soaked through his clothes or that he hadn’t begun to smell yet. “What’s up? Surely my last prank wasn’t that bad.” He tried to sound jovial in the scrutiny of so many serious faces as he stopped in front of them.
“We need to talk somewhere private, and I’ll need your phone.” His agent held out his hand.
“Sure, but my phone is in my chair,” he said pointing out his chair on the opposite side of the set.
“That’s okay, leave it there. We just don’t want any interruptions. If you will follow us we’ll head over to the filming office.” His agent got the group turned and walking towards the large mobile trailer that was used as the set office. It was a tight fit but everyone managed to squeeze inside with some lawyer coming in a minute or so after everyone had found either a place to sit or lean.
“Since we are kind of remote out here on this set and you were busy with shooting and from your calm attitude I am going to say that you haven’t seen the news in a little while,” his lawyer spoke up.
“No why, what’s going on? Is something wrong with my family or old coworkers?” He was confused as to why knowing the news would have anything to do with this meeting. If it wasn’t about something he’d done when off set like he was now suspecting it was, it was still about him and only him and it was something important and probably disturbing. He tried to think of what it could be but nothing came to mind.
“It has to deal with your family in a way and before you freak out your parents and siblings are fine,” his company lawyer reassured him. “The problem is that someone got ahold of some information that is private and sensitive and leaked it to the press. It’s gone viral on the internet and social media and it’s not looking good for anyone right now.”
“What is it?” He was wracking his brain coming up with worst case scenarios and discarding them with lightning speed, still not coming up with anything he could have done so wrong.
“Someone has put out the claim that you have a child and they say that they have the evidence to back it up.” The CEO of the WB almost shouted cutting off his lawyer from speaking.
“What the hell are you taking about? I don’t have any kids, I think I would notice if I had any.” Jared was annoyed with this bit of gossip and that it could be taken seriously. He hadn’t been with anyone but Jensen in a while, not to mention that he was gay which was why he’d only been with Jensen in the past three years. If some woman was claiming to be having his baby or had his baby he’d nip that in the bud real fast. He wouldn’t admit he was gay but he was pretty sure that he could supply them with evidence that he hadn’t dated in years and Sandy might back him up, maybe. If worse came to worse he would take a DNA paternity test. In fact he wasn’t sure if he wouldn’t order one to be taken just to prove his point offensively.
“You do, the DNA tests prove it,” his lawyer said as if reading his mind.
Jared just about fell down his knees went so weak and he couldn’t say a word he was speechless for once. “How?” He managed to finally get out but couldn’t add any more. So many thoughts were going through his mind in the likes of; how did this happen, with what DNA was a test run, what would he tell everyone, and lastly what do I do now?
“The company that handles all your medical records and testing for insurance purposes was the source of the leak. They had a woman breach their protocol after she tested Colin’s blood and found it to be similar to yours and went further with testing,” his lawyer started.
“Colin?” Jared cut him off, actually sitting down now because if he didn’t sit he would fall down and that would be bad and awkward. “And how did she get my DNA?”
“Colin Ford, the boy who is playing the part of young Sam is your son.” His lawyer reached into his briefcase and pulled out a packet of papers, handing it over to Jared. “As for your DNA it was taken for testing when you first stared working on Supernatural and they kept some on hand. We are looking into why it wasn’t destroyed but it seems it’s their policy until the contract is terminated or otherwise asked to destroyed.”
Jared took them but didn’t look at them. In fact, even though he was sure that the packet had some weight to it being as thick as it was he could hardly feel it. He was sure that he had passed into a state of shock that everything going on right now was surreal and if he closed his eyes it might all go away.
“Why don’t we give Jared a minute to get his thoughts together,” Kim spoke up and Jared could have hugged him if he was able for the suggestion.
After a little grumbling and Singer helping, Kim ushered everyone out of the trailer. Jared curled himself up as small as he could make himself in his seat and closed his eyes. He tried to calm him mind from all the overwhelming emotions and questions flashing through and giving him a growing headache. He had a child, a son, and that child was a boy he had worked with. Colin Ford. But Colin wasn’t all that young which meant that he had been very young when Colin was born, hell conceived for that matter. That part of his life was very private and he had done everything he could as an older teen until now to keep it hidden. Now it and a hell of a lot more was about to come into the light. His wild and troubled youth had upended his hard won calm adulthood with four little words, “you are a father.”
After a few more minutes in which he finally started to come round to the idea that he had a child the group came back in. They all took up their former seats this time it was the WB CEO who began the conversation.
“As of right now scheduled shooting for Supernatural is on suspension until we can figure out this business and stop it from becoming a media nightmare.”
“The release of Colin’s name has been suppressed so far and we have the main sources who leaked this information on a gag order or at least as much of one as we can get. However the fact that you have a child is out to the public and I doubt that it will take all that long for the fans to figure it out or for it to be leaked somehow about Colin. We need to head this off,” the lawyer took over, tag teaming with the CEO.
“The fact that you have a child would obviously cause a stir one way or another but the fact that you were so young when Colin was born is what is going to do the most damage,” the CEO looked angry. “That puts out a terrible image not only for you but for the studio as we hired you and you have become a big part of the company’s image. Considering that there is a small morality clause in your contract, however this kind of situation is not covered as Colin was born before you signed.”
“Colin likewise once he is told that you are his father by his parents and their lawyer will likely be looked at in high focus. Any contact you have with him from this moment forward will be with his parents present, lawyers and possibly a social worker.”
Jared had gone pale at the talk of Colin coming under the pressure and fire of the media for his mistake. He felt as terrible as when he’d first been told that the DNA proved him a father. He could hardly deal with this and wouldn’t for some time, what was Colin going to go through?
“That brings us to another point and that is naturally who is Colin’s mother and what kind of relationship did you have with her.” His lawyer actually looked a little sympathetic at this. Out of all the people in the room, he was closest to Jared’s age and probably thought that Colin was the result of a quick fling or experimental one night stand.
“I don’t know, how could I if I didn’t even know that Colin existed?” Jared hoped that this answer would stall them from digging deeper. At the same time he wanted to hide in shame because it was like admitting to being a stupid kid. Colin was adopted so if it was a sealed adoption the name of his mother wouldn’t be on file. And Jared had been with a few women, he didn’t remember all of them.
“We have lawyers bringing up the Ford family so that we can have a conference to talk about how things are going to go from here. As of this moment his name has not been released but we are sure that it will get out some way very soon and we don’t want him or his family to be blindsided by this. The woman who leaked that you have a child is currently under arrest and also has a gag order that she appears to be following at the moment. However, we have to get in front of this and get all the facts and talk with everyone so that we can keep the chaos and panic to a minimum.” This came from one of the studio lawyers that Jared had seen before but couldn’t remember his name.
Jared nodded with everything that the lawyers said and continued to say throughout the rest of the meeting, although he had tuned them out for most of it. All he could think of was that he was a father and that he had known his son without really knowing him. He tried to imaging what life would be like now that he knew. He didn’t hate that it happened but he wondered if he would by the time it was over. He scolded himself for having such a thought. He was still in a daze when the meeting was over and he was allowed to go home. Jensen, it seemed, would be staying on set to do some Dean shots and would be home later. Jared had been ordered not to tell Jensen about Colin or his son in general if Jensen didn’t already know. Jared was unsure of what to do because there was no way to tell Jensen that wouldn’t break his hard earned trust. But he if he kept silent he was still in the same boat. He just didn’t know what to do.
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1995
Jensen’s head and body hurt from last night’s beating, but he sat straight anyway and looked out the window of the bus. He was headed to camp New Horizons where he would be taught to be a new person. A straight person. The mix of emotions that were going through him like a hurricane would surely tear him apart if he didn’t get ahold of them soon. He was all at once very angry with his parents for treating him as they had and packing him up and sending him to this wretched camp. He was angry with himself for whatever he had done to have his parents discover he secret. He was guilty and ashamed for being this way and wanting shameful, wrong, dirty things. He was guilty and sad at straying from his faith and what he had been taught. He was glad that his parents thought that he could redeem himself and that they were getting him help. He was confused that so many people couldn’t or wouldn’t care what he was and were out and about in the world as if it was of no consequence. He was nervous of what the camp would be like and what he would have to learn and need to do. He was worried someone might find out what his father had been doing to him. He hoped that things would get better or he would just go numb and be able to say that he felt nothing at all one way or the other.
When he got to New Horizons and he stood with the other boys in front of the counselors his mind was still at war with itself. He almost didn’t hear that he was to go set up in a bunk house (# 3) before returning for orientation. He followed the line of boys towards a bunch of small hut like cabins made of wood with shingled roofs. He found number 3 on his own and went inside. It was very basic with two beds that were almost cots and a trunk at the end of each. One light was in the middle of the celling lighting up the place poorly. All three walls not having the door had a small window with no curtains. He was sure that prison was nicer than this place. But he put his bag of belongings in a trunk on the right side of the room as no one else had entered before him giving him first choice. After that there was nothing to do but go back and wait for the others and orientation to start.
Orientation was an eye opener and he wondered if his parents knew what was really going to happen at this camp. He had trouble sleeping that night for reasons other than his latest set of bruises.
Jensen was convinced that he was in hell after the second day at New Horizons and nothing had been done to change his first opinion formed during orientation. Somehow he had gained the attentions of one of the senior councilors, Russell, and it didn’t make anything better. If possible it made things worse. He had been here for almost four months when he was told that he would be getting a roommate when the new group of kids came in at the beginning of the week. He had enjoyed his lucky draw of solitude in the bunk house so far, it was the only place that he felt he could escape from the daily torture his life had become. He is given an early release from his tortures on the day the new kids arrived and he sat on his bed waiting to see what kind of boy would show up.
The boy that showed up couldn’t have been much younger than Jensen but he was tall for his age. Tall, gangly with a mop of brown hair, hazel eyes, and a mole next to his nose. Jensen felt bad for the kid that he was much in the same sate as he was when he had first arrived but might have a longer road ahead of him. Jensen, if his parents kept him here, would age out in a few years. The thought of it was enough to give him nightmares beyond what the councilors here did to him. But to be here any longer then what he knew to be the minimum time for him would be unbearable. He hoped that the new boy was a fast learner and his parents didn’t hate him as much as Jensen’s must hate him.
“I’m Jensen,” he introduced himself once the kid was settled.
“Jared,” the kid answered giving him a big smile that brought out actual dimples in his cheeks.
They don’t speak again as Jared left for his orientation. Jensen does not go through Jared’s things and hopes he gets to tell Jared that he wouldn’t do so before the councilors come and do it. He doesn’t leave his room and reads a book that is required for a lesson while he waits for dinner time or Jared to come back. Russell, his main councilor, comes in and looks through Jared’s things but doesn’t remove anything or speak to him besides to ask him if his reading is going well. Russell is supposedly a New Horizons success story, having been sent there for reorientation of his unnatural urges when he was younger and works as a counselor now that he is straightened out and older.
Jared believes Jensen when he tells him that Russell went thought his things and it is the start of their friendship. Jensen learns that Jared is two years younger than him and that he has a younger sister who is sick. They live in the same state, not all that far from each other in the relative scheme of things. As the days pass their friendship grows and they lean on one another after their daily sessions.
By the second week after Jared has arrived Jensen felt like he was in hell, not that it kind of hadn’t been that way before Jared but now...Well Jared was very much Jensen’s type as much as he had one and he had a hard time trying to contain his urges now. He knew that he had an attraction to Jared, that he liked him very much and if Jared showed any more interest in him then he could already perceive and had he could very much find that he could love Jared if he didn’t already. He had decided just yesterday that he would test Jared’s loyalty to him and if Jared proved that he could be trusted he would be able to be as forward with Jared as he had wished to be with Scott, who was the reason he was in there in the first place. He decided that he would divulge his greatest secret that New Horizons had made for him because of the way he was now living the next evening. The new night came all too soon and Jensen was both nervous and excited.
“I jerk off every day” Jensen blurted to Jared as they lay on their beds waiting for lights out.
Jared’s whole body visibly jerked in his peripheral vision. “What? You can’t do that, they check our bedding you’d be in trouble and forget about doing it in the showers.”
“Ever notice I don’t drink my water?” Jensen turned to look at Jared now.
“Your water? What’s that got to do with anything and why would I notice?” Jared sat up now and watched him.
“I hide a paper towel or two in my boxers at last bathroom break and always have a glass of water every night. I jerk off and clean up with the water and towel, in the morning I hide it again and throw it away at first bathroom time. Kinda gross but I won’t die of blue balls and I won’t get in trouble for messing the bed. Win win if you ask me,” he sat up at the last of his explanation to watch Jared’s expression.
Jared was looking at him with awe and confusion but no disgust. “So why are you telling me this?”
“Because I believe you would do a whole lot better if you took a glass of water to bed every night if you know what I mean.”
They didn’t talk anymore about it and much to his joy the next night Jared had a large glass of water on the table by the bed. He was glad that Jared hadn’t told on him and that he was helping Jared out by allowing him to ease his condition and avoid any punishments for his body doing what any teenage boy’s body does in puberty.
Jensen was beginning to think that being sent to New Horizons was a blessing in disguise now. He had hated it at first and hey, what boy wouldn’t, but as of late it had brought him some joy and new focus. Sure, during the day he still had to endure the trials that the counselors called therapy but at night…at night he had Jared and that was a little bit of heaven every day. At first he had liked Jared and wanted to be helpful to the kid. He had taught Jared how to get away with jerking off every night or morning in Jared’s case. Then that had led to watching and touching and shared jerking off sessions late at night and finally kissing. Jensen knew that in the short months that Jared had become his roommate he had fallen in love with him. He was pretty sure that the feelings were mutual. He should have known that things that good couldn’t last.
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Jared hated his uncle and had taken to cursing not only him but his family, and the doctors treating Megan and the world for the way his life was going right now. His uncle had tricked him into going to this horrible place that was called New Horizons. It had started when is uncle had asked if he preferred to go to summer camp instead of hanging out in the little town he lived in. Jared had jumped at the idea of getting away from being bored out of his mind. The only part that sucked was not being able to tell Tom, the only boy about his age in the whole area and therefore his only friend that he was going. Of course he’d managed to leave a note for his friend the day before saying he was sorry to be leaving so suddenly and where he was going so maybe if Tom’s parents let him he’d come to camp too. Only when he got to New Horizons did he learn the truth. It wasn’t a summer camp but one of those places people stuck their gay children to be straightened out. He’d just been assigned a bunk house, number three, and was told to put his things away. No one else in his group was assigned to bunk house three and he assumed he’d be alone so it was a surprise to open the door and walk in to find another boy already inside.
The boy looked a little older than he did but not by that much, with dark blonde hair, green eyes, and a smattering of freckles and puffy lips that he thought might make a girl envious. The boy watched him as he put his things away in a trunk at the end of the bed that the boy wasn’t sitting on. When he was done the boy introduced himself.
“I’m Jensen.”
“Jared” he said, as he smiled. He liked how the boy, Jensen, sounded. He would have liked to stay and talk to Jensen but he knew that he had to go to orientation. He was sure that someone would come and get him if he didn’t show up and he didn’t want to cause trouble on his first day. He had the idea that things here were going to be tough and he had no intention of making things harder than they were already going to be. If he could convince them that there was a mistake and he acted well he might be able to go home before too long. Jensen didn’t try to stop him as he left and he wondered what Jensen would do while he was away. He hoped Jensen wasn’t one of those people who went through other peoples things when they were gone. Not that he looked like he would or that he had much of anything in his stuff worth looking at. His uncle had watched him pack his bag according to a list that New Horizons had sent so there wasn’t anything that was important or fun, he didn’t even have a pack of gum.
Orientation was boring and not boring at the same time. The lectures and goal speeches he could have lived without but the personal goals and schedule that they set up was insane. How in the world was faith study, the morals of relationships and hard labor supposed to turn anyone straight? As for their punishment guide lines and tests, well, that he didn’t want to think about at all. He said nothing though and just nodded when he had to, not bothering to voice anything for fear of saying something that he knew would get him in trouble. By the time he was let out to go back to the bunk house he felt he might go mad from not speaking out.
His things had been gone through but Jensen explained about their cabin monitor and councilor Russell and Jared believed him. After giving it some thought he didn’t know why he never considered that his things wouldn’t be searched what with the list they had sent out on what was appropriate. He decided that Jensen would make a good friend and as the time passed he was right and it would evolve to more over the time they spent at New Horizons.
Jared found it confusing that at a camp where they were supposed to be ‘curing’ boys of their attraction to other boys that they would be stuck in little cabins together with no dividers or supervision. They also took communal showers, albeit these were somewhat monitored. Jared had been lucky he supposed to get a roommate who was tolerable and had become a friend. Jensen was two years older than he was and didn’t treat him as weird because of his appearance or excitable manner, although that excitement was slowly being drained out of him. They came from towns not all that distant from one another. He had struck up a friendship with Jensen almost instantly and they were just about as close as brothers now. Jensen had even broken a lot of rules and offered him some help with his morning erections. But Jared suspected that his feelings for Jensen were changing into something very close to love, if not actual love itself. He had never been in love so he had to guess that this was what the feelings were. He had spent a night worrying about what Jensen would think if he knew before the thought that Jensen might feel the same came to him. Now it was just worry about what would happen if any of the counselors found out. Being separated was sure to be the least of their problems if that were to happen.
As the days passed and his relationship with Jensen grew so did his boldness. Jensen may have given him a tip on how to take care of himself in the mornings but he knew that there could be more to it than just a quick release. They had seen each other naked thanks to the communal showers and he liked looking a Jensen naked. He wasn’t sure if Jensen liked the look of his body though as he thought of himself as a bit of a stick figure kind of guy. He hoped that he would grow into his size but for now he would work with what he had and hope that Jensen appreciated it. His plan to see if Jensen liked him was simple enough.
He had started off by masturbating in the morning when Jensen was awake so that he could be heard. Next he started doing so on top of the covers so that Jensen could see him as well as hear him. He made it a point to also listen and watch Jensen when he could and Jensen caught on. Soon they were taking care of business facing each other and watching. After a while of that he got bold enough to touch Jensen when he was jerking off. Jensen had startled at first and gone back to jerking off under covers for a few days. But then he had come around and out into the open again and this time he took his time sitting close to Jensen while he jerked off before trying to touch him again. Jensen allowed it this time and not long after began to touch him when he jerked off. The next step which this time Jensen didn’t run from was to jerk Jensen off himself. Jensen reciprocated the next day and from then on out they took their time touching each other and jerking off either in the late night or early morning. Then came the morning where he got up the courage to kiss Jensen and to his delight Jensen kissed back.
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Part 2
Author: angelzfurys
Fandom: Supernatural RPF
Gene: Slash
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 23,982 (total)
Warnings: Homophobia, Extreme dub-con bordering on non-con (some may consider it non-con), Sex between minors, Mentions of abuse, Mpreg, AU time line
Summary: Things are going well for Jared and Jesnsen on Supernatural when a secret from their shared past gets out and changes their lives and the life of someone very unexpected.
Disclaimer: I don’t own supernatural, or any of its fine actors or their relatives. I do not presume to know their beliefs and opinions, those of this story are completely made up and fictional. I don’t have anything against any of the people in this story or their real life families, they are probably really wonderful people. I just needed a villain and used their names, again all beliefs and opinions are completely fiction. This story does contain a scene of underage extreme dub-con that borders on rape, and some may call it that so please be warned.
Authors Notes: I suck at summeries but I do hope you all enjoy this story! Also I do realize that Teen Mom didn't air until 2009 but I needed to mention something relevent so I bumped the year down to 2008 to fit my time line. Also I made Jensen two years younger as well. And lastly in this AU men can become pregnant.
Special Mentions: A very big thank you to my wonderful and very patient artist bluefire986 who should be a saint for waiting for me to get through will all my problems before posting. To the bigbang Mods for waiting on me as well a big thanks to them as well.
For my beta kinkyqu33nspn a big thanks! Aslo to the very wonderful and last minute life savers and betas vyperdd and buffenator for giving me that last final look over and corrections you are very much appreciated and helpful, thank you!
For the cheer leaders who helped pick me up and encourage me when I was down and very stressed I thank you and wish I could send you all pie for your kind words and virtual hugs! Thank you to locknkey, milly_gal, and saltandburnboys I am honored to have you as friends and someday hope I can repay you for your kindness.
Art By: bluefire986
Jensen knew that his life would change and he would be in for some emotional thrashing the day he had met Jared Padalecki. Eric Kripke had just hired him to play the role of Dean Winchester in his new young adult show Supernatural. They had wanted him for the part of Sam Winchester originally, but he had liked the idea of Dean better and Kripke had been impressed with him after the reading and had offered to have him as Dean. They had just agreed when along came Jared and he had been perfect for the role of Sam. He had been both excited and nervous to meet the man that would play his brother on screen for hopefully many years to come. Despite his awkwardness around new people he had instantly liked Jared and Jared had liked him. It took no time at all for Jared to worm his way into his life and heart as if he had been there forever.
Jared had taken the lead in every step of their evolving relationship since day one and Jensen liked it that way, at least originally. But lately, he had been a little uneasy and nervous with all the time that passed that they were together because Jared had been getting a bit more free with his public displays of affection that went beyond costars. Jared was also denying things less and less about the two of them and teasing the fan base more than usual about what they were to each other. It was beginning to scare Jensen. They were both in the closet for very good reasons, even if he hadn’t shared all of them with Jared yet, who was more accepting of himself then he himself was. He wasn’t sure he’d ever be able to share everything, but he would try if they continued with their relationship. Jensen needed to figure out what was up with Jared and why he was being more open when they had agreed to privacy.
It had taken him his first year of filming just to admit out loud that he was not as into women as he lead the public to believe, and only to Jared that he did indeed like Jared that way in which he couldn’t name until almost two years into their relationship. Jared had agreed to take things as slowly as Jensen wanted as long as they could stay together. Filming in Vancouver was more private then in LA and they could save money on having a house rather than apartments. They could both be at the instant beck and call of the studio and they would live like roommates to the public eye. Of course that would also allow Jared to slowly woo Jensen and for them to work on any and all intimate parts of their budding relationship in ultimate privacy. Jensen had been good with light touches and kissing when they met but with Jared’s patience that had moved on to heavy petting and clothed frottage coupled with heavy making out by the middle of the third year of filming. Jared had come back to Vancouver earlier from the midseason hiatus of season three and Jensen, with some celebratory alcohol had finally completely slept with Jared for the first time.
Any time he had dared to have sex since his first time he had always topped. He liked it enough but he liked the idea of bottoming even more but his paralyzing fear of his first experience had held him back from ever actually doing it. With Jared it had been different. He was still scared but he actually trusted Jared, and knew that if he really wanted to stop Jared would have in an instant and not said anything about it. Over the three years that they had been together (yes he started counting when they had started filming) he had gotten to know Jared better than any other person in his life so far. It was something that he hadn’t had the chance or the courage to do before because of his shyness and other events in his life. Jared was kind and so very patient and made a lot of his feelings of shame and self-loathing lessen so much that he didn’t really think about them as often anymore. So, with some liquid courage and a giant leap of faith he had let Jared top him. He hadn’t been disappointed and it opened his eyes to what the future could be with Jared by his side.
Jared had been very surprised but very willing, taking his time and soothing him at every turn. Jared had worked him up for a good half an hour, making out on the couch before taking him up to his bedroom. He was gentle and set his body on fire touching him everywhere, slowly opening him at the same time so that he hardly realized he was ready when Jared finally got on top of him. Jared had chosen missionary so that he could see Jared at all times and Jared would be able to see his reactions and back off if he needed. He’d almost cried in relief and happiness and pleasure when Jared was finally seated fully inside him. He hadn’t panicked and it actually felt pretty good, nothing like the first time or any time he had tried to finger himself in the past.
Jared had made the whole thing about him and his pleasure, taking nothing for himself until he had been thrown over the cliff of ecstasy and climaxed so hard he almost whited out. Jared had stayed with him, held him and soothed him through the aftermath and continued to be the most affectionate lover in the world. He had actually had a mini break down the next day. Jared had noticed and asked but didn’t push him when he’d blown if off, at least he’d told Jared so.
After that sex between them had become more and more frequent as each time replaced the memories of the first with a better experience. Jared would still be gentle and perfect but as they got further into it he slowly changed things up and made him push his limits but never so far he was uncomfortable. Nothing that was too outrageous was tried or even suggested and Jared always backed off when Jensen showed signs or said he wasn’t comfortable. Jared was a saint for putting up with him but he was getting better and Jared seemed to know it. Just last week Jared had managed to make him comfortable enough to be taken from behind and stay in the position until they both came.
Just that morning Jared had woken him with a blow job and they had a quickie in the shower. It seemed that the day was going to go well but that proved to be a very different story.
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Seventeen
Issue 12
December 2007
Star of hit WB teen series a father!
Seventeen has gotten an exclusive that Jared Padalecki, the young star of the WB hit series Supernatural is a father. Sources have confirmed from certified documents that in a recent battery of tests for cast members to film the show, Padalecki’s child came to light. Padalecki, who has a large fan following stemming from his days on another WB show Gilmore Girls, isn’t married and no mention of a child has been made before. Supernatural is in its third year with Padalecki at the helm with costar Jensen Ackles. Representatives for Jared Padalecki and the WB have yet to contact Seventeen.
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Present
There was a great commotion as a group of people came hurrying up the road towards the set they were shooting on. The group was so loud that the director called for them to cut and the crew gathered together around the camera and director until the group reached them. In the group was Kripke, Singer, Manners and the studio lawyers, as well as the WB CEO not to mention Jared’s agent and a lot of other official looking people.
Jared’s heart rate picked up and he tried to keep his breathing regular as worry and nervousness ran through him. Whatever was going on wasn’t good, from the amount of big wigs and the serious expressions and from the lack of Jensen’s agent it involved only him being in or the trouble. He tried to think of anything that he had done that would warrant such a gathering of people and that they wouldn’t wait until the day’s shooting was over to talk, opting instead to interrupt the entire schedule. He waited next to Jensen as the group talked with the director, too nervous to go over and see what all the fuss was about.
“Jared, we need you for a moment.” Kripke was the one that summoned him over to the little powwow.
Jensen gave him a quick pat on the shoulder before he headed over trying to act like this kind of thing happened every day. He was sweating so hard he was surprised that he hadn’t soaked through his clothes or that he hadn’t begun to smell yet. “What’s up? Surely my last prank wasn’t that bad.” He tried to sound jovial in the scrutiny of so many serious faces as he stopped in front of them.
“We need to talk somewhere private, and I’ll need your phone.” His agent held out his hand.
“Sure, but my phone is in my chair,” he said pointing out his chair on the opposite side of the set.
“That’s okay, leave it there. We just don’t want any interruptions. If you will follow us we’ll head over to the filming office.” His agent got the group turned and walking towards the large mobile trailer that was used as the set office. It was a tight fit but everyone managed to squeeze inside with some lawyer coming in a minute or so after everyone had found either a place to sit or lean.
“Since we are kind of remote out here on this set and you were busy with shooting and from your calm attitude I am going to say that you haven’t seen the news in a little while,” his lawyer spoke up.
“No why, what’s going on? Is something wrong with my family or old coworkers?” He was confused as to why knowing the news would have anything to do with this meeting. If it wasn’t about something he’d done when off set like he was now suspecting it was, it was still about him and only him and it was something important and probably disturbing. He tried to think of what it could be but nothing came to mind.
“It has to deal with your family in a way and before you freak out your parents and siblings are fine,” his company lawyer reassured him. “The problem is that someone got ahold of some information that is private and sensitive and leaked it to the press. It’s gone viral on the internet and social media and it’s not looking good for anyone right now.”
“What is it?” He was wracking his brain coming up with worst case scenarios and discarding them with lightning speed, still not coming up with anything he could have done so wrong.
“Someone has put out the claim that you have a child and they say that they have the evidence to back it up.” The CEO of the WB almost shouted cutting off his lawyer from speaking.
“What the hell are you taking about? I don’t have any kids, I think I would notice if I had any.” Jared was annoyed with this bit of gossip and that it could be taken seriously. He hadn’t been with anyone but Jensen in a while, not to mention that he was gay which was why he’d only been with Jensen in the past three years. If some woman was claiming to be having his baby or had his baby he’d nip that in the bud real fast. He wouldn’t admit he was gay but he was pretty sure that he could supply them with evidence that he hadn’t dated in years and Sandy might back him up, maybe. If worse came to worse he would take a DNA paternity test. In fact he wasn’t sure if he wouldn’t order one to be taken just to prove his point offensively.
“You do, the DNA tests prove it,” his lawyer said as if reading his mind.
Jared just about fell down his knees went so weak and he couldn’t say a word he was speechless for once. “How?” He managed to finally get out but couldn’t add any more. So many thoughts were going through his mind in the likes of; how did this happen, with what DNA was a test run, what would he tell everyone, and lastly what do I do now?
“The company that handles all your medical records and testing for insurance purposes was the source of the leak. They had a woman breach their protocol after she tested Colin’s blood and found it to be similar to yours and went further with testing,” his lawyer started.
“Colin?” Jared cut him off, actually sitting down now because if he didn’t sit he would fall down and that would be bad and awkward. “And how did she get my DNA?”
“Colin Ford, the boy who is playing the part of young Sam is your son.” His lawyer reached into his briefcase and pulled out a packet of papers, handing it over to Jared. “As for your DNA it was taken for testing when you first stared working on Supernatural and they kept some on hand. We are looking into why it wasn’t destroyed but it seems it’s their policy until the contract is terminated or otherwise asked to destroyed.”
Jared took them but didn’t look at them. In fact, even though he was sure that the packet had some weight to it being as thick as it was he could hardly feel it. He was sure that he had passed into a state of shock that everything going on right now was surreal and if he closed his eyes it might all go away.
“Why don’t we give Jared a minute to get his thoughts together,” Kim spoke up and Jared could have hugged him if he was able for the suggestion.
After a little grumbling and Singer helping, Kim ushered everyone out of the trailer. Jared curled himself up as small as he could make himself in his seat and closed his eyes. He tried to calm him mind from all the overwhelming emotions and questions flashing through and giving him a growing headache. He had a child, a son, and that child was a boy he had worked with. Colin Ford. But Colin wasn’t all that young which meant that he had been very young when Colin was born, hell conceived for that matter. That part of his life was very private and he had done everything he could as an older teen until now to keep it hidden. Now it and a hell of a lot more was about to come into the light. His wild and troubled youth had upended his hard won calm adulthood with four little words, “you are a father.”
After a few more minutes in which he finally started to come round to the idea that he had a child the group came back in. They all took up their former seats this time it was the WB CEO who began the conversation.
“As of right now scheduled shooting for Supernatural is on suspension until we can figure out this business and stop it from becoming a media nightmare.”
“The release of Colin’s name has been suppressed so far and we have the main sources who leaked this information on a gag order or at least as much of one as we can get. However the fact that you have a child is out to the public and I doubt that it will take all that long for the fans to figure it out or for it to be leaked somehow about Colin. We need to head this off,” the lawyer took over, tag teaming with the CEO.
“The fact that you have a child would obviously cause a stir one way or another but the fact that you were so young when Colin was born is what is going to do the most damage,” the CEO looked angry. “That puts out a terrible image not only for you but for the studio as we hired you and you have become a big part of the company’s image. Considering that there is a small morality clause in your contract, however this kind of situation is not covered as Colin was born before you signed.”
“Colin likewise once he is told that you are his father by his parents and their lawyer will likely be looked at in high focus. Any contact you have with him from this moment forward will be with his parents present, lawyers and possibly a social worker.”
Jared had gone pale at the talk of Colin coming under the pressure and fire of the media for his mistake. He felt as terrible as when he’d first been told that the DNA proved him a father. He could hardly deal with this and wouldn’t for some time, what was Colin going to go through?
“That brings us to another point and that is naturally who is Colin’s mother and what kind of relationship did you have with her.” His lawyer actually looked a little sympathetic at this. Out of all the people in the room, he was closest to Jared’s age and probably thought that Colin was the result of a quick fling or experimental one night stand.
“I don’t know, how could I if I didn’t even know that Colin existed?” Jared hoped that this answer would stall them from digging deeper. At the same time he wanted to hide in shame because it was like admitting to being a stupid kid. Colin was adopted so if it was a sealed adoption the name of his mother wouldn’t be on file. And Jared had been with a few women, he didn’t remember all of them.
“We have lawyers bringing up the Ford family so that we can have a conference to talk about how things are going to go from here. As of this moment his name has not been released but we are sure that it will get out some way very soon and we don’t want him or his family to be blindsided by this. The woman who leaked that you have a child is currently under arrest and also has a gag order that she appears to be following at the moment. However, we have to get in front of this and get all the facts and talk with everyone so that we can keep the chaos and panic to a minimum.” This came from one of the studio lawyers that Jared had seen before but couldn’t remember his name.
Jared nodded with everything that the lawyers said and continued to say throughout the rest of the meeting, although he had tuned them out for most of it. All he could think of was that he was a father and that he had known his son without really knowing him. He tried to imaging what life would be like now that he knew. He didn’t hate that it happened but he wondered if he would by the time it was over. He scolded himself for having such a thought. He was still in a daze when the meeting was over and he was allowed to go home. Jensen, it seemed, would be staying on set to do some Dean shots and would be home later. Jared had been ordered not to tell Jensen about Colin or his son in general if Jensen didn’t already know. Jared was unsure of what to do because there was no way to tell Jensen that wouldn’t break his hard earned trust. But he if he kept silent he was still in the same boat. He just didn’t know what to do.
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1995
Jensen’s head and body hurt from last night’s beating, but he sat straight anyway and looked out the window of the bus. He was headed to camp New Horizons where he would be taught to be a new person. A straight person. The mix of emotions that were going through him like a hurricane would surely tear him apart if he didn’t get ahold of them soon. He was all at once very angry with his parents for treating him as they had and packing him up and sending him to this wretched camp. He was angry with himself for whatever he had done to have his parents discover he secret. He was guilty and ashamed for being this way and wanting shameful, wrong, dirty things. He was guilty and sad at straying from his faith and what he had been taught. He was glad that his parents thought that he could redeem himself and that they were getting him help. He was confused that so many people couldn’t or wouldn’t care what he was and were out and about in the world as if it was of no consequence. He was nervous of what the camp would be like and what he would have to learn and need to do. He was worried someone might find out what his father had been doing to him. He hoped that things would get better or he would just go numb and be able to say that he felt nothing at all one way or the other.
When he got to New Horizons and he stood with the other boys in front of the counselors his mind was still at war with itself. He almost didn’t hear that he was to go set up in a bunk house (# 3) before returning for orientation. He followed the line of boys towards a bunch of small hut like cabins made of wood with shingled roofs. He found number 3 on his own and went inside. It was very basic with two beds that were almost cots and a trunk at the end of each. One light was in the middle of the celling lighting up the place poorly. All three walls not having the door had a small window with no curtains. He was sure that prison was nicer than this place. But he put his bag of belongings in a trunk on the right side of the room as no one else had entered before him giving him first choice. After that there was nothing to do but go back and wait for the others and orientation to start.
Orientation was an eye opener and he wondered if his parents knew what was really going to happen at this camp. He had trouble sleeping that night for reasons other than his latest set of bruises.
Jensen was convinced that he was in hell after the second day at New Horizons and nothing had been done to change his first opinion formed during orientation. Somehow he had gained the attentions of one of the senior councilors, Russell, and it didn’t make anything better. If possible it made things worse. He had been here for almost four months when he was told that he would be getting a roommate when the new group of kids came in at the beginning of the week. He had enjoyed his lucky draw of solitude in the bunk house so far, it was the only place that he felt he could escape from the daily torture his life had become. He is given an early release from his tortures on the day the new kids arrived and he sat on his bed waiting to see what kind of boy would show up.
The boy that showed up couldn’t have been much younger than Jensen but he was tall for his age. Tall, gangly with a mop of brown hair, hazel eyes, and a mole next to his nose. Jensen felt bad for the kid that he was much in the same sate as he was when he had first arrived but might have a longer road ahead of him. Jensen, if his parents kept him here, would age out in a few years. The thought of it was enough to give him nightmares beyond what the councilors here did to him. But to be here any longer then what he knew to be the minimum time for him would be unbearable. He hoped that the new boy was a fast learner and his parents didn’t hate him as much as Jensen’s must hate him.
“I’m Jensen,” he introduced himself once the kid was settled.
“Jared,” the kid answered giving him a big smile that brought out actual dimples in his cheeks.
They don’t speak again as Jared left for his orientation. Jensen does not go through Jared’s things and hopes he gets to tell Jared that he wouldn’t do so before the councilors come and do it. He doesn’t leave his room and reads a book that is required for a lesson while he waits for dinner time or Jared to come back. Russell, his main councilor, comes in and looks through Jared’s things but doesn’t remove anything or speak to him besides to ask him if his reading is going well. Russell is supposedly a New Horizons success story, having been sent there for reorientation of his unnatural urges when he was younger and works as a counselor now that he is straightened out and older.
Jared believes Jensen when he tells him that Russell went thought his things and it is the start of their friendship. Jensen learns that Jared is two years younger than him and that he has a younger sister who is sick. They live in the same state, not all that far from each other in the relative scheme of things. As the days pass their friendship grows and they lean on one another after their daily sessions.
By the second week after Jared has arrived Jensen felt like he was in hell, not that it kind of hadn’t been that way before Jared but now...Well Jared was very much Jensen’s type as much as he had one and he had a hard time trying to contain his urges now. He knew that he had an attraction to Jared, that he liked him very much and if Jared showed any more interest in him then he could already perceive and had he could very much find that he could love Jared if he didn’t already. He had decided just yesterday that he would test Jared’s loyalty to him and if Jared proved that he could be trusted he would be able to be as forward with Jared as he had wished to be with Scott, who was the reason he was in there in the first place. He decided that he would divulge his greatest secret that New Horizons had made for him because of the way he was now living the next evening. The new night came all too soon and Jensen was both nervous and excited.
“I jerk off every day” Jensen blurted to Jared as they lay on their beds waiting for lights out.
Jared’s whole body visibly jerked in his peripheral vision. “What? You can’t do that, they check our bedding you’d be in trouble and forget about doing it in the showers.”
“Ever notice I don’t drink my water?” Jensen turned to look at Jared now.
“Your water? What’s that got to do with anything and why would I notice?” Jared sat up now and watched him.
“I hide a paper towel or two in my boxers at last bathroom break and always have a glass of water every night. I jerk off and clean up with the water and towel, in the morning I hide it again and throw it away at first bathroom time. Kinda gross but I won’t die of blue balls and I won’t get in trouble for messing the bed. Win win if you ask me,” he sat up at the last of his explanation to watch Jared’s expression.
Jared was looking at him with awe and confusion but no disgust. “So why are you telling me this?”
“Because I believe you would do a whole lot better if you took a glass of water to bed every night if you know what I mean.”
They didn’t talk anymore about it and much to his joy the next night Jared had a large glass of water on the table by the bed. He was glad that Jared hadn’t told on him and that he was helping Jared out by allowing him to ease his condition and avoid any punishments for his body doing what any teenage boy’s body does in puberty.
Jensen was beginning to think that being sent to New Horizons was a blessing in disguise now. He had hated it at first and hey, what boy wouldn’t, but as of late it had brought him some joy and new focus. Sure, during the day he still had to endure the trials that the counselors called therapy but at night…at night he had Jared and that was a little bit of heaven every day. At first he had liked Jared and wanted to be helpful to the kid. He had taught Jared how to get away with jerking off every night or morning in Jared’s case. Then that had led to watching and touching and shared jerking off sessions late at night and finally kissing. Jensen knew that in the short months that Jared had become his roommate he had fallen in love with him. He was pretty sure that the feelings were mutual. He should have known that things that good couldn’t last.
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Jared hated his uncle and had taken to cursing not only him but his family, and the doctors treating Megan and the world for the way his life was going right now. His uncle had tricked him into going to this horrible place that was called New Horizons. It had started when is uncle had asked if he preferred to go to summer camp instead of hanging out in the little town he lived in. Jared had jumped at the idea of getting away from being bored out of his mind. The only part that sucked was not being able to tell Tom, the only boy about his age in the whole area and therefore his only friend that he was going. Of course he’d managed to leave a note for his friend the day before saying he was sorry to be leaving so suddenly and where he was going so maybe if Tom’s parents let him he’d come to camp too. Only when he got to New Horizons did he learn the truth. It wasn’t a summer camp but one of those places people stuck their gay children to be straightened out. He’d just been assigned a bunk house, number three, and was told to put his things away. No one else in his group was assigned to bunk house three and he assumed he’d be alone so it was a surprise to open the door and walk in to find another boy already inside.
The boy looked a little older than he did but not by that much, with dark blonde hair, green eyes, and a smattering of freckles and puffy lips that he thought might make a girl envious. The boy watched him as he put his things away in a trunk at the end of the bed that the boy wasn’t sitting on. When he was done the boy introduced himself.
“I’m Jensen.”
“Jared” he said, as he smiled. He liked how the boy, Jensen, sounded. He would have liked to stay and talk to Jensen but he knew that he had to go to orientation. He was sure that someone would come and get him if he didn’t show up and he didn’t want to cause trouble on his first day. He had the idea that things here were going to be tough and he had no intention of making things harder than they were already going to be. If he could convince them that there was a mistake and he acted well he might be able to go home before too long. Jensen didn’t try to stop him as he left and he wondered what Jensen would do while he was away. He hoped Jensen wasn’t one of those people who went through other peoples things when they were gone. Not that he looked like he would or that he had much of anything in his stuff worth looking at. His uncle had watched him pack his bag according to a list that New Horizons had sent so there wasn’t anything that was important or fun, he didn’t even have a pack of gum.
Orientation was boring and not boring at the same time. The lectures and goal speeches he could have lived without but the personal goals and schedule that they set up was insane. How in the world was faith study, the morals of relationships and hard labor supposed to turn anyone straight? As for their punishment guide lines and tests, well, that he didn’t want to think about at all. He said nothing though and just nodded when he had to, not bothering to voice anything for fear of saying something that he knew would get him in trouble. By the time he was let out to go back to the bunk house he felt he might go mad from not speaking out.
His things had been gone through but Jensen explained about their cabin monitor and councilor Russell and Jared believed him. After giving it some thought he didn’t know why he never considered that his things wouldn’t be searched what with the list they had sent out on what was appropriate. He decided that Jensen would make a good friend and as the time passed he was right and it would evolve to more over the time they spent at New Horizons.
Jared found it confusing that at a camp where they were supposed to be ‘curing’ boys of their attraction to other boys that they would be stuck in little cabins together with no dividers or supervision. They also took communal showers, albeit these were somewhat monitored. Jared had been lucky he supposed to get a roommate who was tolerable and had become a friend. Jensen was two years older than he was and didn’t treat him as weird because of his appearance or excitable manner, although that excitement was slowly being drained out of him. They came from towns not all that distant from one another. He had struck up a friendship with Jensen almost instantly and they were just about as close as brothers now. Jensen had even broken a lot of rules and offered him some help with his morning erections. But Jared suspected that his feelings for Jensen were changing into something very close to love, if not actual love itself. He had never been in love so he had to guess that this was what the feelings were. He had spent a night worrying about what Jensen would think if he knew before the thought that Jensen might feel the same came to him. Now it was just worry about what would happen if any of the counselors found out. Being separated was sure to be the least of their problems if that were to happen.
As the days passed and his relationship with Jensen grew so did his boldness. Jensen may have given him a tip on how to take care of himself in the mornings but he knew that there could be more to it than just a quick release. They had seen each other naked thanks to the communal showers and he liked looking a Jensen naked. He wasn’t sure if Jensen liked the look of his body though as he thought of himself as a bit of a stick figure kind of guy. He hoped that he would grow into his size but for now he would work with what he had and hope that Jensen appreciated it. His plan to see if Jensen liked him was simple enough.
He had started off by masturbating in the morning when Jensen was awake so that he could be heard. Next he started doing so on top of the covers so that Jensen could see him as well as hear him. He made it a point to also listen and watch Jensen when he could and Jensen caught on. Soon they were taking care of business facing each other and watching. After a while of that he got bold enough to touch Jensen when he was jerking off. Jensen had startled at first and gone back to jerking off under covers for a few days. But then he had come around and out into the open again and this time he took his time sitting close to Jensen while he jerked off before trying to touch him again. Jensen allowed it this time and not long after began to touch him when he jerked off. The next step which this time Jensen didn’t run from was to jerk Jensen off himself. Jensen reciprocated the next day and from then on out they took their time touching each other and jerking off either in the late night or early morning. Then came the morning where he got up the courage to kiss Jensen and to his delight Jensen kissed back.
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Part 2