I don't know what to do with myself anymore

[angelnimp]

I spent most of the last 3 years putting everything on hold to be there for my family. And now I don't know where to go from here. Is it ok to put myself first now? And what would it mean if I did -- do I even know what I want anymore

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[fredbassett]

Hi :) Excuse me for wandering over.

I hope you've found some peace with life and yourself now, but speaking from my own experience, yes, it's definitely OK to put yourself first. It fact it's bloody necessary at times.

I've had some black times over the last few years, and making space for myself amongst those times has been one of the stepping stones on the road to recovery. I'm not there yet, and it's been a long haul, but progress is being made, and 'me time' has been hugely important.

The internet and the friends I've made through Primeval have been a huge help to me, so if you ever want a long floppy ear to talk into, the Hound is always happy to pay back the time others have given to me. *hugs*

[angelnimp]

Hi ^_^ Thanks for wandering over. I'd like to say that I've figured it out, but I don't know if that's true or not. I'm certainly doing better than I was though. Starting to feel a little bit more in control of things and I've been doing some proactive kinds of things to fix my frustration issues, but the holidays are proving to be a challenge to my rather fragile equlibrium. Sometimes the blackness is overwhelming. Oddly, fandoms have been a big help -- finding things that make me smile (or make my brain melt ^_^) oddly sometimes are all it takes to make a really sucky day bearable. Escaping into hotness is never a bad plan I don't think.

Anyway, thanks for reading and commenting. ^_^

[fredbassett]

I've found fandom a huge help. It kept me writing when my concentration for my original fic had been wiped out by my depression problems, and I met a bunch of really nice people, many of whom have become good friends, both on and off-line. And you're so right, you can almost guarantee there'll be something to cheer you up after a sucky day.