Yet another day in which I wonder if my medication is still working. I did something today that I’m not too proud of but I think in the end it was for the best. I sent Tim a text message saying that I’m sad we can’t talk anymore but I won’t bug him again. He sent one back saying “why’s that” so I told him that after so many unanswered calls and ( Read more... )

As the day goes on Im finding it harder and harder not to laugh when my co-workers talk about my bosses. . .Tom and Jerry. . .

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So this past week has been an interesting one, aside from being deathbed sick that is. Thursday I stayed home from work to go to the doctor and get some necessary running around done (like picking up cat food and getting the new sticker for my license plate). But by Thursday night I was so fed up with being sick that I dragged my snotty keester out ( Read more... )

A voice inside me screams to run and find another way ( Read more... )

does caring for someone sometimes mean walking away? Can you justify hurting someone if it is best for them in the long run? Putting someones own needs in front of your own is one of the most difficult decisions. I want to be greedy. I want it even though its being selfish. But I cant and I wont. Tonight everything will go back to the way it was ( Read more... )

Im really really sorry and you know I love you both but. . . . . ouch

Some days I find it hard to tell if the medication has stopped working or if Im just getting worse

OKay so Im too hyper to sleep cause I had the best idea in the world!!!! I want to call Jay but its 3:45am and he's probably out of service and oh yeah he may be asleep!! Ahhhh okay so Jay and I were talking about A Perfect Cirlce and Maynard and all that schtuff and then tonight I realised I have an extra TooL ticket!!!! Im gonna kidnapp Jay!!! ( Read more... )

I can’t sleep. Its 4:45am and again I am spending my night not in restful slumber but awaiting the dawn. I cannot will sleep to come anymore than I can will the sun not to rise; the sun wont listen and neither will the dreams inside my head. I sit in silence before cars fill the roadways, before even the birds themselves have found the will to rise ( Read more... )