i've taken it upon myself to write in this thing again. i haven't done it in a while so here it goes......i'm sure you all know that i'll be gone in a few more days. its terin me apart inside no matter how much i hate to admit it. but these past couple weeks have been great. i've spent time around kristen which made me really happy....we took a ( Read more... )

well... i'm about fucked up.... but i hate the fucking manazon!!!! ashley wants to start shit and run her fucking mouth. but on the upside i about killed meself. i wanna die.. the only thing that kept me from it is the thought that i've got someone who loves me whom i love as well. but the only thing that keeps me going is my friends. i love ( Read more... )

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move i make ( Read more... )

ya ever get the feelin' that nobody cares ( Read more... )

have you ever felt a certain way about a certain someone but just couldn't say anything about it because it'd fuck up a lot of good things? if so, then you know all about my problem. i can't talk anynmore about that right now. but anyway......dez is at school today so i have someone to talk to...yay....!!!! and i got a new pair of plaid pants.. ( Read more... )

i don't really have much to talk about in my journal, i just got really fuckin' bored. so, what eles should i do while i'm trying to kill an hour and 15 minutes before class???? i don't know. i just don't fuckin' know. but i have made some changes as of late. i've lost a few friends so to speak. oh well. i can carry on alone as i have before ( Read more... )

well, for some reason Dez isn't here today so i'm left completely alone. that sucks. i feel alone enough as it is, and now the only person i have to talk to isn't even here. i bitch too much. anyway, i can't wait till tonight. i get to see someone i haven't seen in years. yay. i hope her and i still get along. its been a long time you know ( Read more... )

ya know what? life sux. thats about it. its like a new york hooker. it just sux and sux and sux until it sux you dry and leaves you shaking in aftershock. then guess what.......you gotta pay for it. aint that a bitch. i'm having trouble putting mysory machine back together again. i'd like for it to work, but i just don't think its gonna. ( Read more... )

Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move i make ( Read more... )

well, i'm done with class. i found out a lot the other day with the shrink. i found out what my problem is and why i'm depressed all the time. i also found out why i can't sleep at night. i can't sleep because of nightmares that i can't remember, but i know i have them. i'll get into a dream, then i'll wake up in a sweat. i can't sleep for ( Read more... )