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Never
Well, Darin finally paid me. Jaime and I are... sorta friends? I mean... aquaintances... I guess. Officially facebook approved friendship! haha. OKay. Things are weird. but good. I mean I know there have been a lot of lies, and now there's really no way of knowing the truth. So I told him that I was choosing to hang on to the good memories and move ( Read more... ) -
Everything You Do
It hurts me, everything you do hurts me. Do you not see that? But it doesn't matter, because no matter what you do, I will always love you. You gotta know that. So that in and of itself hurts me.
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Lose it all
I think it's interesting the way things turn out. I lost everything with Darin. And sometimes things suck. But I am so okay. I work a lot. I'm super tired. But I am surviving. He's coming home for a while starting in 2 days. And ive been dreaming a lot about him. It makes things difficult because I wake up thinking about him. Of course.
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All the way down
Sometimes it hurts from my head, all the way down to my toes. Sometimes its just numbness. But sometimes God's love overwhelms me so much that I find my happiness again and do all that I can to hang onto it for as long as I possibly can.
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Piece of me
So he has recently told me over and over how we are just friends, and that he wants to make sure that I know this. He doesnt want me to think that theres more going on than there is. Which, in truth, I pretty much already know. He told me that he just wants to protect my heart. Which is really very sweet. So little by little, I have surely been ( Read more... ) -
So Long
Things are changing so much in my life right now. The truth hurts. But I don't stop telling it. I am who I am. I feel what I feel. I believe what I beleive. I love who I want to love. And if people dont like it. Fine. I'll find new friends, who like who I am, the way I am. there are a lot of people who do.
I will not apologize for who I am. I am ( Read more... ) -
Light House
You know what a light house is. It's that beacon of light that guides you in, or around, or to. It makes things visible again. It's that light that draws you in. It is the center of everything it touches, and all you want to do is stand in the middle of it and watch the light touch everything around you. There is something particularly magical, ( Read more... ) -
A message in 2011
Today he posted that he is proud of himself for: working hard and living on my own. Im 21 never been arrested don't have any kids not living with my parents and Im paying my own way through life. It just gives a guy a good feeling in his stomach to know he's making something of himself :) but i wouldn't be here without all my family helping me ( Read more... ) -
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
Last night was so much fun. My friend Kurt came over and made us the most delicious spaghetti dinner. And then we watched Everything Is Illuminated. It was a great movie, with great characterization, but was super sad! And also funny... Interesting.
I am a little bit frustrated seeing as Darin and I had finally started talking again, and now hes ( Read more... ) -
Telephone
Staring at your phone, waiting, is never fun. That is... until you get what you were waiting for. Which I haven't.
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