pretty happy with the changes i've been making lately. i've made a couple mistakes, but if anything i've learned from them, & i just don't want to be that person anymore. the only thing that is holding me back from what i really want to do, is my drinking. but even that's becoming less of a problem. i love having a busy schedule, i love doing ( Read more... )

i can't even stop crying... i was read my dads will & testament today. he left me & my sister everything. i wasn't even prepared for this. i pretty much never have to worry about being broke again. he knew how hard it's been for me growing up, so he put away so much for us. i don't even know what to do right now. i'm just so sad that he's gone... i ( Read more... )

i hate how sick i am. i make up these scenarios in my head & i turn them into reality & base my feelings & opinions of people on them.
maybe i'm just a psychic. they aren't too far from realistic. i hope i'm just making this all up though.

i love it here, but i'm also pretty homesick.
i'm torn between whether to stay for a bit longer, or to go home on the 10th...

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i don't know why he thinks he has the right to make me feel like shit, like he's not even my fucking boyfriend.
mindfuuuuuuuuuuuck.

it's to the point where i just want to get over his ass.
but i fucking can't because as soon as i show a slight disinterest he pulls that i love you bullshit.
& as soon as i give in & tell him that i love him he's like nahh.
i'm so sick of playing games.

Since we are in existensial hell, and you are going to be one of my many wives in existensial heaven, I was wondering if you wanted to come to the city and get fucked hard core before we are no longer allowed to as the Utopian code doesn't allow such conduct. I mean good, long, hard core fucking. I am clean and have no STD's. I'll even get you ( Read more... )

haha i'm such a slut.

i don't really want to die. i just don't feel like i have the will to live my fucking life like this anymore.