I feel like i always give more in a friendship than i get back. I feel like I'm a friend of convenience to a lot of people. Kinda getting tired of it too. I feel like I'm always there for my friends when they need me. As soon as I need someone there's no one to be found. Maybe I just need to learn to ask for help rather than just complain.

I'm done with this bs of trying to make someone like me. Its all so pointless. But I'm in high spirits.

I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to bother trying to impress Amanda any more. Its just too much bother really. Plus I'd rather stay in Pittsburgh anyway. All my family and friends are here. The friends more so than the family are what's keeping me here. I can't really see myself being any happier out in Philly than here ( Read more... )

i'm so getting in trouble at work tomorrow.

I cant stand drama at work. I'm getting tired of working here. I wish i could transfer.

I have beastie boys stuck in my head!

Crazy day at work. One pt almost beat the shit out of another pt. And then a third pt starts yelling at the aggressor making it ten times worse. Plus the second pt was antagonizing ppl all day so he sorta deserved it. Sometimes i cant believe i work at such a place. It really blows my mind. O well at least im leaving soon ( Read more... )

I was feeling down today due to a pt at the hospital dying a couple days ago and now Austin dying. Plus things with a nameless girl that is very important to me (hence the reason her name isn't included). But in the end, at this moment, I feel rather at peace. Not super happy but calm ( Read more... )

My heart stomps loudly where my brain refuses to tip toe. The barren wasteland I must traverse to reach the lush grotto that you reside in fills my mind with dread. Yet, the unending passion I feel in my chest, pulls me on across this desert, towards your oasis.

I feel like the world would be better off without me. Maybe that's why I haven't been to a doctor in so long. Because I don't care if I die.