Comments | amw: Late night rambling

amw

Late night rambling

May 19, 2009 04:10

Why am I doing this on my iPod? It's too hard, I don't want to wake J and I have nowhere else to go. Nowhere I feel safe anyway. I just... I need more time to think, to figure out what the fuck is going on. This thing with looking back at the moment I don't know if it's healthy but it means something. There's some lesson I'm supposed to get. I've ( Read more... )

anxiety, relationships, depression, alcoholism, freedom, bird in a gilded cage, looking back, career, crazy

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scatterbeetle May 21 2009, 04:49:50 UTC

Hey gorgeous. Just catching up on LJ. It's been a day or so since you made this post - how are you doing now? I'm worried.

amw May 21 2009, 17:36:49 UTC

I'm not doing well, my mind is pretty scattered and i'm not focusing on any of the things i should be focusing on. Plus i'm acting like a dick toward the family because i just can't deal with it. But i'm trying to stay conscious of it, taking my meds, not doing anything too stupid, trying to book an appointment with a shrink... I'm not sure what more i can do right now.