Daniel is going home tommorow, back to Michigan. (Sits back a moment in silence) I am worried about him, after his father died last year, I know he feels it was his fault even though it was just an accident and he himself is lucky to be alive... A year ago I met him right after this tragedy and even then he seemed even happy. Not that his Father ( Read more... )

Little stars shinning
Big dreams a'wishing
Too much to bear...
Too much to breathe
Is it too much to say
"I love you dear?"
Sevret wishes and childhood dreams...
Sleep now fears and my heart reborne
Flamming love of Light, Love and the joy
you bring my daydreaming wishes on little stars.

Sleeping winds awake
admist the sleeping flowers
and the waking dreams
My hear beat on agasint the changing season.
THe colors of the wind blown leaves.
and endless tears of joy and sweet pain
Its been too long my dear...
you still hold my fears of those passing dreams.
I will always love...
Your sweet memory
and that waking dream.
-Patrick Alois

It seems my life took a despeate change beginning early in my childhoo.d I was never much of anything I could have ever been. I wasn't sure whether or not to feel sorry for myself or just accept the realuty that the things we do in life are only determined by hoy many variables of fate and self control we allow to enter our lives. My love...I'm not ( Read more... )

I was staring at the sky ( Read more... )

It seems ever since Shane moved to West Virginia or maybe a couple years later when I finaly accpeted myself, I always thought I wanted someone to love and cuddle again. Not really so anymore ( Read more... )

What am I feeling ( Read more... )

Lately I have been looking for my friend Shane as most of you know. Last night I actually found a friend of his and hes going to give me an e-mail today! I can't believe after six years I can finally talk to my best friend again. Our history together is notorious, but right now I could care less about what he likes to hump. I'm just glad to have ( Read more... )

Now the one thing you have to know about Christmas, the one thing you really need to know, the thing that all children know with every fibre of their being, is that Christmas never comes ( Read more... )

I found shane.....
after 6 years of silence...I found him.
Now tommorow i will know if he hates me or not.
I feel like im burning inside...anticipating