it just really sucks that i'm not wanted at the one place that has been a constant in my life for 12 years. and now, noone wants me there. i'm not going today. i should be leaving for there now. shan told me not to let what ____ said get to me. dad said not to go because we'd get into a fight. reese asked if dad was right. he probably is. so i'm not going. just, this hurts so much!
i've had so much put on me lately. not wanted at church, not wanted by the love of my life, not wanted by my sister. and yet noone seems to realize that somethings don't go away with time, they only hurt worse.
There's a picture on my chest of a pretty little girl following kittens. The pretty little girl is so happy about these kittens that she gives up everything she's doing to pay attention to these kittens.
Oh my. Ell, how can you not be wanted? Who is insane enough to not want an Ellen? I want an Ellen to come join FUUCA because we love you.
I'm sorry for asking you to relay info to your church group. If they are treating somone as awesome as you like this than maybe my church doesn't want to work with Corpus. Just you.
and my youth group isnt horrible, just, .... i dont know how to describe them anymore. they used to be my best friends, then my only friends, now they dont even want me any more.
I love Ellen!ballsofgoofJanuary 25 2004, 13:04:47 UTC
Reading that, i'm pissed at all Corpus church goers, who had an effect, that's morally wrong! Also, you're the coolest person i know, and i would love to get to know you more. To me--you stick of for yourself, and aren't afraid to express yourself. But you also do it in a people friendly way--you are the farthest thing from a bitch, which is why i love your LJ title, and you deserve SOOO much more than the shit you've been given, someone told me this not to long ago about a differnt issue, but i think it apply to you
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Re: I love Ellen!americasangelJanuary 25 2004, 13:36:41 UTC
thanks meara. you make me smile so much.
and i agree, stupid people dont need their toes.
i like your advice to be happy. i just wish it was that easy. so much has happened to me. i've lost so much of what used to be important to me that i now don't know what my purpose is anymore. i don't know where i am, or where i should be going.
but i love you and thanks for brightening up my day.
Re: I love Ellen!ballsofgoofJanuary 25 2004, 13:58:40 UTC
I know this isn't very realistic, but you shoudl be comming to Houston, Dallas, Ft.worth, Tulsa, OKC, New Orleans, Plano, or anywhere else you choose to go. I know it's dumb, but you're a junior, almost a senior in highschool, is everyone at your school's dumb, there's more than one school in Corpus, you could maybe try a differnt one or make a new group of friends at the one your at for just a year, then go far far away, where you can re-invent yourself, take the things about yourself that you know you like and others like and expand on them, and forget about the hurtful things. But for now: your purpose: come to houston where you are: in the hearts of many UU friends who wish they could hold you when you need it where your going: somewhere that's nothing but better than where you are now.
do you know this song? i hope it gets stuck in your head.rickbibbyJanuary 25 2004, 14:52:51 UTC
How could anyone ever tell you you were anything less than beautiful? How could anyone ever tell you you were less than whole? Hasn't anyone ever told you that your loving is a miracle? How deeply you're connected to my soul.
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We should make our own church, and pass out free cookies or something.
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it just really sucks that i'm not wanted at the one place that has been a constant in my life for 12 years. and now, noone wants me there.
i'm not going today. i should be leaving for there now. shan told me not to let what ____ said get to me. dad said not to go because we'd get into a fight. reese asked if dad was right. he probably is. so i'm not going. just, this hurts so much!
i've had so much put on me lately. not wanted at church, not wanted by the love of my life, not wanted by my sister. and yet noone seems to realize that somethings don't go away with time, they only hurt worse.
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There's a picture on my chest of a pretty little girl following kittens. The pretty little girl is so happy about these kittens that she gives up everything she's doing to pay attention to these kittens.
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I'm sorry for asking you to relay info to your church group. If they are treating somone as awesome as you like this than maybe my church doesn't want to work with Corpus. Just you.
I love you Ell.
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and my youth group isnt horrible, just, .... i dont know how to describe them anymore. they used to be my best friends, then my only friends, now they dont even want me any more.
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and i agree, stupid people dont need their toes.
i like your advice to be happy. i just wish it was that easy. so much has happened to me. i've lost so much of what used to be important to me that i now don't know what my purpose is anymore. i don't know where i am, or where i should be going.
but i love you and thanks for brightening up my day.
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But for now:
your purpose: come to houston
where you are: in the hearts of many UU friends who wish they could hold you when you need it
where your going: somewhere that's nothing but better than where you are now.
=)
you're really swell.
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when i graduate, i'm going to austin. gonna be going to UT... not my first choice but better than some others.
you're rather swell yourself darlin.
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How could anyone ever tell you you were less than whole?
Hasn't anyone ever told you that your loving is a miracle?
How deeply you're connected to my soul.
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