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[amdragoste]

Oh, I beat myself up SO HARD today for not exercising. Going corset shopping with the Red Rat girls at 2 threw my whole day off in terms on timing. Then I went to look at this house at 7:00 but no one answered the door. Whatever! I'm checking out another room down by the marsh tomorrow morning so that's something else to get nervous about. It's

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[sirdentofdoom]

It is so hard to break out of the food business. :( I feel like I'll never get a job that doesn't smell like toast and hot eggs and coffee, that doesn't involve constant smiling and running and juggling and pouring. I like the food business, its just sometimes thats all I can see, when I want to be doing so much more, so many different jobs and things.

I wonder, also, if anybody is ever truly comfortable and happy being just for themselves. Sometimes I think I'm being so independent and happy just for me, and pretty just for me, and exercising just for me...and then some stray thought will wander its way across my brain and I'll realize that its not for me at all. It may be for some higher, grander, abstract person/organization/society, but then it might be for somebody I didn't even know I felt I had to impress, or for somebody I'm not even conscious that exists....but I do wonder if we ever become free of that feeling.

So what is the current status of Trill and you? Dare I ask? Do you even wish to share?

[amdragoste]

Hot eggs and coffee...Oh god I can smell it now! At least you've had other non-paid cool experiences like helping people learn to read and such. That would be an awesome job...Better than this so-called hospitality rubbish

[sirdentofdoom]

How confusing! Good lord. I hate when there is no actual rhyme or reason to relationships. :P Its like this giant river that just keeps moving and suddenly there are rapids, adn then there is sunshine, and then there are loads of silvery fish, but then its just a little river, but then its emptying into the ocean! and you are just bobbing along on your little inner tube. Incidentally, I went inner tubing once, and this giant dead fish floated along side me the whole time. It was repulsive. Anyways. :D

Gah! I feel dumb talking about relationships too, its like does anyone actually want to hear this cliche stuff? But yeah. The friendswithbenefits worked out very well. we went our seperate ways over last summer, adn we're still really good friends, talk often and there is no awkwardness. yay!

[amdragoste]

Wow, Bean, I just DIED laughing (died of lolz?) reading that post. Freaking brilliant. You're the awesomesauce!!