Crush

[amber_starcat]

I never thought I would write here again in LJ but my mind is swirling in thought and words. If you are flying in here for the first time, one thing is to be known: I never use real names. I've always used LJ to dump my feelings and fears and I find myself missing and wanting a place to drop them again. So here I am...8 years later. I briefly went

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[aekastar]

Welcome back to lj!
Finally had a chance to check in :)

The crush stuff reminds me so much of last year when I developed feelings for "the guy" as I call him in my journal. I dunno why since everyone knows him on fb and we made vids :O
Anyway, I felt the same after writing how I felt to him... that most likely nothing would happen, but I had to get the feelings out there anyway. it's still long distance, so who knows 100% how it'll turn out, but it felt positive last year for me. I wish you good luck with your crush!
IMO, it sounds like he does like you a little bit since he plays those games with you. nonetheless, I hope you find peace in getting the feelings out :)

[amber_starcat]

Thanks, Amber. Glad some of ya are still around. It's not like I want to drop this into FB, right? What happens in LJ, stays in LJ.

I returned here because I can't contain myself any longer. It's too painful. And yes, the mind is quieter for getting things out. I've missed writing. I cringe at some of the past stuff, though, but stand by all those words regardless.

Looks like I'm checking back in here for a while. It's good to be back.

[aekastar]

Yeah, LJ is the place to get real feelings out there and to vent, def not FB! :)
I sometimes cringe at my old stuff, too (and even current stuff... hahah), but knowing I'm just venting in the moment helps + I filter most of the really bad stuff, lemme check to see you're on that filter. I only deleted some that were realllly concerning or health related that I was over.