2012, live or die

[amazingadrian]

This has been one hell of a year already, and it is only the end of March.

In mid January my hearing changed. Following a pattern that has been ongoing since (at least) the last two years of college, it got worse over the winter, but the difference this time is that it got worse than it's ever been before. I went to the audiologist to make sure my

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[cuddlegrimm]

I don't think you're going crazy. You're just starting a new part of your life! Of course that's gonna be tough. :p

As for the girl issue - you've been pretty up front about your problems with me (I think lol) and I've been pretty okay with them. I'd say just be honest but at the same time, don't overload them with too much information unless they specifically ask.

[amazingadrian]

Yeah, I plan on continuing to be up front about it. It's good to be frank about these things, though some part of me still wants to hide it. It's probably one of those foolish insecurities, though it seems legit. Most people don't go out of their way to comfort the obviously disabled, and while having hearing aids are ubiqtuous enough for me to slide with, implants that plug into my head could be seen differently.

I'll hide it behind a hat and some Bro shades. Look cool doing it. Maybe even get the hair right.

[cuddlegrimm]

I think you'd look cool regardless ;p Tho if you do a bro cosplay I WANT PICS <3

And meh, if anybody's foolish enough to jeopardize a growing friendship/relationship over your disabilities, they are really, really shallow and undeserving of your time and effort. :/ You're a really cool guy and you're looking for a lifetime relationship, so if a girl or two decides not to do anything with you because of your disabilities/implants, THAT IS A GOOD THING lol. They are not lifetime material XD

[gumbamasta]

Well, crazy was one of the words that came to mind, desperate another. Personaly I would say that god had about as to do with the recovery of your ear as I did. Which is to say nothing. Maybe you should consider that just the fact that you didn't listen to loud music anymore helped.

[amazingadrian]

Oh man, Gumba. I remember you. So good to see an old, familiar digital combat card representing your quasi-fictional face

[drone_dragon]

When my father was beginning to go deaf, he got himself a Lyric disposable hearing aid that goes down in his ear canal. I don't know if this would be beneficial to you or not. I'm not terribly versed in hearing aid schematics.

[dewhitton]

Never forget that God created science and the scientists who invent cochlear implants. So don't treat it as a lesser choice over faith healing.

A friend of mine had an implant 20 years ago and has never regretted it. The system now is so much more advance over his old model from the early 90s.

[amazingadrian]

I know. I'm just uncertain if now is the right time for this.

Could you maybe put me in touch with your friend? That might help me a lot, hearing from someone who's done it already.

[banshea]

On the one hand, faith is something that you're supposed to turn to when things get tough. On the other hand, religious fanaticism can be a troubling sign.

Sometimes cutting people and activities out of one's life is a good thing -- they may be bad influences, worsening depressive tendencies, etc. Other times it means pushing away the very people who are there to help and severing your emotional support network. Given that you've indicated you believe that God wishes you to remove people and things that you've enjoyed, it sounds more like the latter than the former.

I'm totally with dewhitton up there. God created the laws of nature and inspired scientists. The hand of God acts through people who help others and improve the world

[amazingadrian]

Connections are what I need right now. Maybe I should tell the doctor that I'm not willing to go through with this until after I've spoken with someone who's using cochlear implants, and possibly the ministry team behind the book I mentioned