i'm feeling so fufilled. more so than i have ever been in my life. and i think that its because i am not so much changing but evolving into this person that i am falling in love with. no inibitions, no regrets. always perspective,  always mindfullness. i take chances with anyone and anything. i greet myself with an open mind. i feel no more self ( Read more... )

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I'm starting to spend most of my time with the people who care about me most. I don't need anybody else around.

I keep telling myself that it's a good thing.

i can't talk to you right now because my head is spinning, and i don't think i can actually concentrate on anything else but keeping my entire self from falling to the ground.

i can't talk right now because im afraid of people. i rather not look at you because then you'd see me. and i don't want that.

i can't talk right now because i'm in an crazy ( Read more... )

My thoughts within the past 10 minutes:

-Why.Won't.My.Headache.Go.Away. I feel like I'm dying. And, I won't be surprised if i cough up a lung sooner-or-later, either. Never-ever again. I promise this time.

-I've never missed another existance more than I miss you. I want you back in my life. I was so happy.

-Fuck. Me. I am such a slacker.

-The 2-4-6-8 ( Read more... )

While awake, I feel empty, though i still exist. In my dreams, I am beautiful. I turn grown men into little boys, giggling and elegant, singing songs that make you cry. In these dreams, I feel a little less empty, and a little more special. I like it that way.

In the past week, I've started school, met new amazing people, started babysitting for ( Read more... )

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My life really is an indie movie...

where the mail never comes on time and those anticipated words that scratch the inside of your throat are begging to come out, but only when the door shuts. the timing is always off and the awkward feeling is always on. and most things are simply ugly. and just when you think that all of these mishaps and wrong ( Read more... )