is this actually happening!? 
: O
i still cant accept it 
: D
but.....theres always something that can screw it up....

its been almost a yr without a bf....on and off. it went by quick. and ive been happy...on and off. i cant say i regret it because i did what was right at the time but i wish things had been different but theres no going back so ill stop now.  ive met people and know whats out there now and i know what i want. i just have to wait for it....but im ( Read more... )

well i havent had anything to look forward to in awhile...since nicole was here but im really excited for tonight.  i have to beg my mom to let me take her jeep...hopefully she'll let me and if not then josh will just have to get a truck.  arturo is coming too and liz wanted me to take her n her friend. haha the more the merrier.  peter might come ( Read more... )

this is all kind of weird....i finally came to the point where I come first and not anyone else.  Ive always put other people and their feelings before my own but now SCREW THAT.  what about ME?  that doesnt mean to say that i was a really nice person before because i sure as hell wasnt but i let it happen so much that after every time i did i ( Read more... )

so i get ready ( Read more... )

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how ( Read more... )

i started to get dizzy during class.  and then i decided i should cuss one of the managers out for making me work so much to the point that i was exhausted but i ate and then felt better and didnt : D hahah but then i was in art and i was soooo tired and then my hands started to feel cold it was so weird and i was like holy shit there is no way im ( Read more... )

my eyes hurt. i finished my hw though. im sooo tired of everything. i was supposed to have the day off tm but i picked up this girl's shift cuz shes going out of town and she said shed pick up mine on saturday cuz i really want saturday off so im happy about that but i was pissed off all day cuz i was hungry and no one would let me eat. so johanna ( Read more... )

im getting glasses haha what a nerrdd : D i cant get a license without em. so ill prob just wear them when i drive at night, ssommeetimes maybe at school n shit like that.  i got out early cuz only the guys were there and my trainer and she likes me so she let me go. pretty freakin badass that my boss and trainer really like me!! : ) so all day i ( Read more... )

-our trainers left today : ' ( im gonna miss em they were so much fun. 
+i got accepted!  : D like i knew i would yaayyy  
+mmm...i put some stupid bitches in their place for trying to tell me what to do and my boss was on my side cuz she likes me : )
++ i got paid...for training wk so it wasnt that much but enough i think to get the watch and pants i ( Read more... )