you would think by now i would realize that shopping and eating binges do not help bad days. they just make me feel exactly the same + stupid, poor, and fat. i hope this week is better than the last. the weather has been nice, but the car window down warmth only lasts a couple of hours, so it does't keep my smile long. my chest hurts and my eyes ( Read more... )

i never have anything interesting to say. i'm going to the gym again. it's nice. i will get rid of this stomach once and for all. i'm watching the superbowl with my dad at my grandparents which is good because he won't be able to do anything stupid. i'm doing laundry tomorrow at my moms house and then going to my aunt's for dinner, and then ( Read more... )

The past couple of months have been insane. Crazy even ( Read more... )

I turned on the radio and sort of expected Christmas music. That's what I've been listening to for the last 2 months. But there is no more. I'm not really happy about it. It doesn't feel like Christmas should be over yet. Our tree is still up. And will be for awhile ( Read more... )

no one could.

The new show Date my mom is AWFUL. I've seen so many episodes of it. I can't help but watch these people make fools of themselves. The best part is the end where the mom, daughter, and boy go running hand in hand down a beach. WHAT>? and the moms are crazy. Yeah so, it's wicked late. I worked third shift last night and could not stay awake ( Read more... )

workworkwork. I worked three to twelve tonight. Went to Walmart for the first time in forever. I figured at one in the morning that there wouldn't be too many people there but the parking lot was pretty full. I didn't buy too much, just kind of enjoyed walking around the store looking at all the toys. I have to leave for work again in an hour ( Read more... )

I wrote a bunch. I deleted it all. Most of it I wouldn't have wanted anyone to read, it just sort of helped to express it in some way. Summarized.. I feel shitty, I'm insane, and I love Christmas, shopping, Krystal, and Sabrina.

( And also, I miss this show so much. )

I'm becoming a lazy person. Lately I've been sleeping all the time. That's all I do. Sometimes I think it's to avoid certain things, and other times I think it's just that I'm exhausted. Physically and emotionally just tired. It probably doesn't help that Krystal and I keep the heat up to 1000 degrees and our Christmas tree just makes home ( Read more... )

as far as thanksgivings go.. probably the worst ( Read more... )