victory is an elusive whore

[amand_r]

The thing is, given any current time you are bound to feel certain ways, and even though you feel that way now, you won't feel that way forever. So when I say all of these things, I already know that I might feel differently later. I'm always surprised at the number of people who feel the need to tell you that you won't feel a certain way forever

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[topgeargirl2]

I haven't really have anything to say because well I read it and was like, yeah this is how it really is.

Still it making me want to write my porn battle fic so I don't end up upset or whatever. I'm not complaining since I want to participate in the porn battle anyway. Crossdressing is a brilliant prompt.

I'm glad you felt you had to get it off your chest.

[amand_r]

Are you doing crossdressing? I tried to get them to make the third category "Furries" but they wouldn't listen to me.

[topgeargirl2]

Yes I am and it's set in the 1920s.

I'll leave it there.

[amand_r]

ARE THERE FLAPPER DRESSES? I MIGHT NEED TO SEE A FLAPPER DRESS ON JACK. LAURA! WHERE ARE YOU?

[tripperfunster]

I think that pretty much everyone is vastly different from their online persona.

I mean geez! If we were all cool and social and shit, WE WOULDN'T BE ONLINE. WE WOULD BE HAVING REAL LIVES.

FWIW: I like you. I like that you are weak and can admit it. I'm weak too, but I'm not great at advertising that.

I don't think anyone likes you/us/me because you're perfect, or because your brave or whatever. We like you because you're clever, and funny and talented.

You have a certain humanity to you that is compelling. Plus, your mom rocks my world. And if you came out of her, you can't be all bad. And she loves the shit out of you, and that must mean something.

[amand_r]

I also flash my boobs when people offer me shiny trinkets.

No wait, that's my online me.

My mom stopped loving the shit out of me when I finally told her to stop squeezing so hard when she hugged me. HOW'S THAT FOR DISGUSTING. AWWW YEAH.

[cthonus]

[My mom stopped loving the shit out of me when I finally told her to stop squeezing so hard]

I'd swear my mother was the Master in disguise. The first time she was over after I bought my flat:

MUM: There's no food in your fridge. You're not starving yourself because you don't want to be alone?
ME: No I'm not [FUCKING] starving myself.
MUM: You're not binge eating because you're upset?
ME: I AM NOT UPSET!!!
MUM: You're always in a bad mood these days.
ME: !!!!

[amand_r]

HAAHAHAAAH.

Oh the LOL.

[djin7]

Fandom and the internet makes me bold.

I suspect this is the same for most of my flist.

However, it does the exact opposite for me. I've never been so polite, so level-headed & logical before. Life doesn't have a preview button, alas. In RL, I'm more likely to break shit than react like a sane person. Rage is, and always has been, a part of my life.

Online, I feel like I've been lobotomized.

It can be a good thing, sometimes. Other times, I wonder if it doesn't make me worse in RL, even more likely to FTFO. The anger must have a release. *shrugs*

[amand_r]

It's interesting to think about, in any case. Everyone seems much more awesome when you only have to read about an edited version of their whole personality. On the other hand, that's not precisely true, because most of the time when I meet people at cons or whatever, I actually end up liking them more.

Whatever. the internets is hard, DJ.

[djin7]

They really are - maybe even harder than RL, because they are so two-dimensional. *le sigh*

[amand_r]

Yeah, that's it. You're all like little ether puppets until I meet you in person.

I have aspergers, dammit.

ps i don't have aspergers.

[phaetonschariot]

lol I don't think I could crit your work. Even if there happened to be something I didn't like I'd be like "wtf am I doing I get like five reviews on half my stuff I don't know shit." I've never figured out the magical formula that makes a fic get four pages of reviews and I can't give a fuck anymore because it's too much energy.

I totally write stories in my head though. Half of it never even turns up as scene snippets. It's like when I wanted to be able to draw because I could make great pictures in my head, but on paper it was all mutant deformed things.

[amand_r]

I have to be honest, I don't get it either. There are times I get like six reviews and I'm surprised that it's so little, and then other times the opposite. and I think a lot of it is who you know and blah blah. Certainly before last...June, my work was one page of comments. The day I broke two pages I was in shock

[rexluscus]

I've never really admitted to myself that I don't like concrit, but...I'm pretty sure I don't like it. I mean, I used to tell myself that I wanted it so I could "improve," but it's not like I ever make changes to the story if someone points something out they don't like, and I never really "learn something for next time" from concrit either. Usually people just point out things that I already knew were wrong with the story and would rather not hear about again. And usually I just take it and hang my head, Eeyore-like, and say "yeah, I guess you're right." Which is kind of stupid.

[amand_r]

Well, the fact is that every story has flaws, and a great deal of the time we know what they are. I usually spot them after posting and go, "man, that was stupid." But see, for me, it's finished. It's done. I did what I wanted to do and I'm ready to move on. sometimes, like with gold dust, I left whole scene in that I could have cut just because I LIKED them. It made me feel better having them in. So when someone points out those flaws you can either say, "Thanks." or "Yeah I knew that" which is what you want to say, but if you do you come off as a prickly wanker

[rexluscus]

And two, even if you didn't know, it's not like toilet paper on yoour shoe, it's something you can't change or do anything about, it just makes the other person feel bad.

Yes, exactly. What are you going to do - rewrite the story? Nobody does that.

People can point out typos - I can fix those. But saying "I didn't like the pacing/characterization/depiction of ninteenth century hot-air ballooning/big game hunting/whatever"? Fuck off!

[amand_r]

I never get my hot air balloooning right.