I hate the fact that everyone feels that they know so much about me. They think they know whats best for me. I hate it when they tell me how i'm feeling, or whats best for me. You dont fucking know me! You dont know what i think, or how i feel. What if i want to try something new!!! Is that going to fuckking kill you!? i mean honestly, how does it ( Read more... )

WOW for the first time in a loooooooooong time i'm happy, i wont tell you why, you wouldnt understand....just be happy for me!

Man I hate this. I hate not being able to forget. I hate always excpecting people to change. I hate broken promises, i hate it all. Most of all i think i hate myself, i hate letting people walk over me, i hate holding on to things when they should be let go, i hate thinking that people always tell the truth, i hate putting my gaurd down and being ( Read more... )

listening to a cd my good friend gave me. I dont really get to spend much time with her anymore. But thankfully only another 2 months before i get to hang with her. I miss seeing her every weekend. I miss our laughs mostly. I mean sometimes i believe that laughter makes you feel better, at least being with her did. Her family was like my secret ( Read more... )

Man so much has happens this summer, but for some strange reason i still feel empty. Like i feel like i am waiting for something. Expecting something to happen or come, it bugs me because i have no idea what it is. I feel like there is something more for me. Maybe i'm just going crazy. Still in some ways i feel so lost, and so alone. Its like ( Read more... )

Wow, let me say this summer has been the best of my life! I mean when i get older and my kids ask me my favorite part in life i would say it would be this summer.Even though it started with my heart being ripped out stomped on and kicked to the curb, my friends were there for me. I've done some crazy ass shit...this summer, went to some shows,going ( Read more... )

well today was great untill i came home. Julie knows the story, if you want to know it ask her about it. Well through the arguing with my mother i've decided, and i hope that all of my friends will understand this, but i am joining the CCC at the end of Sep. My mom thinks that i am irresponsible, and that getting off the phone and computer is going ( Read more... )

Even though in the past few months ive gone through some really shitty stuff,i think i'd have to say i'm doind okay. I dont think i would have been able to make it without all of my friends and sisters.I mean i had big plans for september,but shit happens. I'm just taking the punches right now.I'm fighting back the best i can.Honestly i hurt a lot ( Read more... )

i have yet to get my ass to the doctors for my damn ears. I don't want to go cause i know whats wrong with me, and its nothing some pain killers can't fix, but once they wear off, even soemtimes they way i eat hurts the shit out of my ears. I think i'll wait a few more days.I went to my sister Barabaras house, well her b/f house, and its so nice. ( Read more... )

so last night Julie, and Nicole came over. We tried to watch the spongebob movie but we talked the hole way through it.After the movie we diecided that they were goign to stay the night. So mom gave all of us some buttery nipple shots and then we went to the park. then we went to corys and i flashed everyone, and then julie and mine pants were ( Read more... )