things are going well at home, little stressful at work.

In retrospect...I was an idiot a lot of the time 07-08. It's really shocking.

I want to right my wrongs...

but I don't know if I'll get the chance.

aaannd hitting the downer mood again.

great. i'm so fucking unstable, i swear.

Things have been the best they have been in my life for probably...2 years now. No, I'm not exaggerating ( Read more... )

To elaborate on my last post, having someone you built a life with at one point...and who vanished from your life...move back in with all of your old furniture, and then take off to san diego for 4 or 5 days while you try to adjust and realize that you've once again pushed away everyone who cares about you...for this ( Read more... )

I feel very lost.

Work is going well. I am officially done at the club and done at Robeks after Wednesday. We picked who we were hiring for Intersection and I am VERY pleased with that :).

I start getting paid Thursday, so I will probably have my first real check on the 13th. Yay.

Why does everyone else get to be happy? Why can't I feel anything anymore, for anyone...except the one person I shouldn't ( Read more... )

Scratch that last post, my mind is completely blown right now...more later as this develops.

wtf?

I feel the fear of falling again and going through this whole painful process of him leaving again.

But worse this time around, because I wouldn't be getting anything out of it for me anyways.