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[allthefeelings]

[Eridan is standing on the roof of Building 8, filming himself sending vast arching beams and rivulets of streaming, crackling white power across the sky. He's yet to actually blow a hole in anything, shockingly, but he's grinning sharkily and is possibly, with his cape streaming out behind him, mere inches away from actually starting to laugh

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[thekidsare0kay]

[And suddenly. Sollux. He's glowing red and blue, but the last time he attacked Eridan while he was using his magic, he wound up blind, so he's not sure he's actually going to attack.]

What the fuck do you think you're doing?

[thekidsare0kay]

[He lets Eridan pry off his hand and draws away a little, sitting next to him instead and looking with disturbed fascination as the purple blood runs down his wrist]

Why...why would you do thith?

[allthefeelings]

Right noww it's because I'm gonna melt or somethin' if I don't do it. I havve to cancel out the powwer I use or somethin'.

[He gouges even lines up the rest of his forearm, and then sighs, and watches his blood run, holding his arm sideways, away from his clothing.]

[thekidsare0kay]

Right now? [Sollux is sort of freaking out] Why were you fucking blathting off like an idiot if you knew you were going to have to carve yourthelf up?

[allthefeelings]

[Eridan gives him a sort of 'seriously?' look.]

It's not that big of a deal.

[thekidsare0kay]

[He scowls back and looks at Eridan's arm again, watching the blood drip, drip, drip onto the rooftop]

But it'th pointlethh. You weren't even doing anything utheful with the power, and now you're all thcarred up more than you were before.

[allthefeelings]

I'm not sure wwhy you're making such a big fuss about it. Besides, you don't really wwant me to do anythin' meaninful wwith it. [He traces small spirals of white across his forearm, searing his wounds closed, and then hesitates, and opens one up again. This seems to be alright.] I like havvin' the powwer again.

[thekidsare0kay]

[Why IS he making such a big fuss over it? Sollux falls silent and watches, worrying his lower lip, hugging himself a little.]

Wath your life really that horrible, that you wanted to die?

[allthefeelings]

Wwhat's this got to do wwith dyin'? If anythin', this kinda powwer makes me feel more alivve. Almost like havvin' a pulse again and evverythin'. [He takes a purple cloth out of his sylladex and wipes at his arm until it's grey again.]

[thekidsare0kay]

No, dumbathh. [He reaches out and takes Eridan's hand, tracing a scar with his fingertip. He remembers the first time he really saw Eridan with his shirt off, how he had explored the scars on his torso and Eridan had gotten really freaked out.] Kanaya didn't give you thith one. You did it to yourthelf. And it wathn't today. Thethe were there before.

[allthefeelings]

[Eridan gives Sollux a sort of squinty-eyed look.] Wwhat's your point?

[thekidsare0kay]

Tho anthwer my quethtion. Wath your life tho fucking bad that you wanted to kill yourthelf?

[He'd think this was more attention whoring, but he knows Eridan was trying to hide the scars from him before.]

[allthefeelings]

That's ridiculous. If I wwanted to kill myself, I'd be-- Okay, wwell, I wwould a' died because a' somethin' I did instead a'--

I didn't wwant to kill myself, anywway, wwhat an idiotic assumption.

[thekidsare0kay]

[Ugh, why is Eridan so fucking easy to pity. Sollux lets go of his hand and shifts, stretching out on the pipe they're sitting on instead with his head against Eridan's thigh and looking up.]

Why'd you cut yourthelf, then?

[allthefeelings]

[Eridan stares at Sollux for a little while. Why'd he have to come and ruin his funtimes? Why is his KISMESIS the only person fucking concerned about him?!]

Because it helps wwhen I'm miserable, wwhich is basically alwways.

[thekidsare0kay]

I've never tried that. With how painful and horrific my powerth were, there were timeth when I would have gladly died. But I alwayth figured doing it mythelf wath thomething only weak pietheth of nook thlime did.