Summer is about halfway over. So far its been pretty low key and pretty much boring, but its going by way too fast. I don't like thinking that I will be moving back to school in 7 weeks, but it is also exciting to start my last year of undergrad knowing that I will have at least one year off school following graduation. I'm remaining hopeful ( Read more... )

I'm moving out of the house in Troy. One day I woke up and thought "why the fuck am i putting up with this bullshit" so I applied for housing on campus and got in 3 days later. I don't move in for another 3.5 weeks which sucks but I'm sure my life will change for the better. I'm kind of nervous to be moving in with three strangers who have lived ( Read more... )

Today I was notified that my mom and sister found an apartment and will be moved in by the end of the month most likely. So I have probably seen the house I lived in for 20+ years for the last time. The thing I'm going to miss most is Christmas Eve and Christmas morning. It just won't be the same waking up somewhere else ( Read more... )

Today I logged into my SIUE account to pay my first tuition payment of 918$ (since my fucking financial aid was audited and they needed additional proof to how poor my family is, and by the time I rounded it up they told me it wouldn't process before the first payment was due so I'd have to come up with that money on my own), went thru the payment ( Read more... )

A lot has happened since my last post. I moved out of my apartment and into a 3 bedroom/2 bathroom house. It's a bit further from school but the rent was ridiculous in Edwardsville and we got a much nicer house in Troy than we would have gotten in E-ville for the same price. I got a job at Dollar General. The pay and reputation definitely suck ( Read more... )

I'm journaling today because I feel like curling up into a ball and dying and this seems to be fairly therapeutic ( Read more... )

I got a shitload of candy and two tall boy amp energy drinks. Its 4:23am and I'm ready to get this paper started. But not, which is why I'm doing this instead ( Read more... )

It's almost 6am. I can't sleep. I'm not feeling good at alllllll.

Life is good. Not great, but good. The school year is quickly coming to an end, and along with it comes all the work that I've put off til now, and all the assignments the professors decide needs to be assigned during the last 3 weeks of school. My grades are pretty much set in stone. As long as I don't completely bomb my finals, I should be ok ( Read more... )

I'm unofficially done with swimming. I say unofficially because I don't see myself swimming anymore, but lots of swimmers have said that and then come back and swim for another decade. My relay that was ranked 17th in the Nation ended up placing 34th, even though we were only 1/3 second slower than our best time. It was an incredibly fast meet ( Read more... )