Soo, I went to my friends birthday party last night and I didn't have fun. It was supposed to be like a rave, only not. It was only not fun for me because I didn't know many people there and because I had a schizattack. Yea, I started showing signs of my mentalness and I wasnt happy about it. I went from mad, to happy, to upset wanting to cry all ( Read more... )

So last night I had a delusion or hallucination. What ever you wanna call it, a sign of schizo. It's this smell that will come and go at times that I can't control. I had just gotten offline and sat down to watch Fresh Prince when I smelled it. I tried breathing in other scents like from my shirt or something and I could still smell a hint of it. I ( Read more... )

Today was a good day. I thougth I had to finish some homework but it turns out my teacher is gone, so I don't have to finish it. Good thing because I didn't get it out till 10. So I went shopping at Kohls. I was on the floor searching for skinny jeans. They had one pair in my size and of course, they didn't fit right. Damn Levis. So I have to order ( Read more... )

So after researching it and talking to my mom about it, I think I have a mild case of schizophrenia. My mom denies me having it at all, but I could see fear in her eyes, so I think shes just scared of admitting her other daughter has a mental disorder. It's nothing serious, I'm not retarded or anything. But I do show signs of some of the symptoms. ( Read more... )

I just researched Schizophrenia and these are the descriptions I think fit me best ( Read more... )

I usually have a really bad anger issue when it comes to my friends. My older brother and sister never hung out with people all that much, so I don't get to often. I used to freak out all the time because my mom wouldn't let me see my friends for NO REASON. Seriously, she'd say "just because" which pisses the hell out of me. I havn't gotten mad ( Read more... )

So homecoming was the other night. I was so excited because my BFF came up from North Carolina and we had soo much fun. Well, ever since 4th grade, I've had an allergic reaction, or sick reaction, to dasani water. Well these dummies decided to pour it out of the bottles and into cups. Jamie went and got me some and i drank it not knowing it was ( Read more... )

So this freak-o-guy asked me to homecoming and I said yes. Then i took it back because I wanted to go with someone else. Harsh? Nothing compares to this. My friend asks him why he wouldnt respond to me turning him down and why he wasnt mad. He said because he was just trying to find someone to get him in. WTH! He graduated, why would he want to get ( Read more... )

I've always thought that abortion is absolutely unacceptable. There's no reason to kill something that hasn't been born. What did it do to you?? Oh yeah, made you a mom. Anyways, so one of my summer reading books was called The Good Earth. In it theres a part where a famine breaks out. This guys wife gets pregnant and kills her baby after its born ( Read more... )

Well, after a few years wondering where my place is in my teenage life, i finally figured it out. I'm always the one who helps other people with their problems. Mostly relationship problems, that's funny because I don't do relationships. That's the other part I figured out. I don't like feeling tied down and as Victor told me last year, they bring ( Read more... )