So another all-nighter and another messed up sleep schedule today. Had a good day till someone was a douche in a game of Magic which then set off my temper and it was all I had not to go off on the guys. Now I'm just in a slump-feel like I'm in a rut. I feel like I'm not much more than an urn of cinicism and anger, always on edge and ready to ( Read more... )

...cause I'm not sure who I can talk to about this topic. I apologize ( Read more... )

What do you do, or what does it mean, when you can't get someone out of your head short of not seeing/hearing/talking/being around/smelling them for a very long time? When you're happy enough in a relationship but the slightest of any of the prior mentioned activities brings them back into your mind and they rest there like a blanket on your head: ( Read more... )

I'm writing this because I need to get these thoughts out of my head (again). It's been a while since I've lost it and broke down, but through a combination of a manga and a new song they finally broke through and hit a soft spot I didn't think existed anymore. The manga is "Hana Kimi" and the song is "Wonderful Life" by Alter Bidge. I just bought ( Read more... )

I guess I should mention that the questions I last posted aren't about me but are directed towards a friend whose in an emotionally abusive relationship and they've already admitted to me and some other cocerned friends that they're not sure why they stay. It really got me to wondering and deeply concerned as to why she stayed but I wasn't sure I ( Read more... )

Do you stay because you don't want to give the satisfaction of him thinking he's right?
Do you stay because you don't want to cause any more pain?
Do you stay because you want for things to turn around?
Do you stay because you're tired of being alone?
Do you stay because of me?
For what reason on this green earth would cause you to stay?

So over the Thanksgiving break I got a chance to hang out with family and friends and I could've only wished it would've lasted longer. Got to hang with Caitlyn for the first time in a while, which was nice as I don't get to see or talk to her or Lynette much anymore. Also got to meet Katt for the first time in years (I'm thinking 8 or so? Last ( Read more... )

So I'm not sure if anyone watches The Big Bang Theory, but I had a weird dream last night stemmed from it and i'm not sure what to make of it. During the deram I'm generally a third-person watcher, but it's implied that I'm leonard or once in a while I take his point of view. So here it is ( Read more... )

Why do I care so much about this?! Beth has openly admitted that she is avoiding me and wants nothing more than to pretend that I don't exist. If I happen to be on AIM and she logs in she immediately logs out. And I'm mostly inclined to let her continue this because I am stupid and can't stop having feelings for her. Now, what's the point, then, to ( Read more... )

So I now have two female friendships that are up in the air and pseudo-estranged lol. And this latest one amuses me to some degree, and I feel I probably shouldn't be. The first is obvious and is Beth. She texted me over the weekend as she was drunk (apparently the only way I'll hear from her). She's avoiding me because if I don't exist then she ( Read more... )