On March 3rd, 2013 my father passed away. I was in Las Vegas when it happened. We had just arrived somewhere to meet some friends. My sister Lori called my phone several times but I didn't hear it. She called my boyfriends phone, so I knew something terrible was wrong. He handed me the phone and she said "Daddy's dead Gia. He had a heart attack." ( Read more... )

When I laid my head by your side and realized it would be the last time I closed my eyes and felt your spirit comforting me. You were cradling me. I finally broke and began to cry out the pain. It hurts so much that you're gone but feels so good to have you here. I love you, I miss you, every day.

It feels like my heart is slowly disintegrating. I don't understand why I'm not enough. Often I find myself as second best to video games, music, etc ( Read more... )

I just want to celebrate another day of livin ( Read more... )

Yesterday as I'm walking I begin to observe other people. Some are walking with their head held high, others with it bowed low. What are they all thinking? Most are in a hurry. Some are wandering as if they have no place to go. Some will look you in the eyes then quickly look away. It's almost as if they want to be invisible. Most humans can't ( Read more... )

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I know that things will be better if I have a more balanced life. I need to start dancing, I need to do reiki. I want to stop smoking. I want to quit the bad habits and replace them with good ones. I want to feel good again, from within. In turn I will be able to be a brighter light for others. It is possible to change. If you're unhappy you have ( Read more... )

Personal pain is the loudest form of a constant horrofic sound
that only you can hear.