I think I found the one.

is weird. i've been thinking about it a lot.
that &death.
i dunno man.
i miss maura.
&thinking that i'll never see her ever again is really shitty.
blah blah blah.

i had a dream that i was spending time with joseph f weiss & i woke up in a panic & all sorts of furious because, per usual, he was trying to ruin my life. but at least in my dream he took it to a new venue. that being australia. but seriously. leave me alone.

chuuuuuuurstyyyyyyy

hello.

it is 2009.

this marks the NINTH year of this journal's existence. holy. shit.

i love brendan john coughlin & that's what's up. zee end.

the boy in my life honestly makes me more happy than i thought i could be. we get into spats a lot, but they are usually quickly resolved & lead to progress. he gives me a feeling of home that i haven't had in a long, long time. this is the third night i haven't got to sleep in his arms in a row, which is the longest we've gone since we started ( Read more... )

i hate when someone does something really shitty, (or continually does really shitty things?) & you call them out on it... &then somehow YOU end up feeling like the shitty person? right? how does that make sense? it's happened two nights in a row now. but in all sincerity i haven't done anything wrong. except care way too much. maybe that's an

thinks it's really funny to play mean tricks on me & give me anxiety attacks.

good stuff, right?

i will shake this nonsense. i will shake this nonsense. i will shake this nonsense. keep repeating it.

is the word. i enjoy it. blah blah blah.