I really could be working on my paper about "The American" but all I want to do is have a smoke.  So I found an ideal program to travel with for study abroad in Beijing (Host family?  I'm thinking definitely).  The program also includes a class on Eastern medicine and massage therapy.  Do you know how exciting that will be?  Probably not, but I bet ( Read more... )

Tonight was amazing.  I got to see Porcupine Tree, one of my favorite bands, for the first time tonight.  And because they had never come anywhere near Kansas City before they played a little bit from every album instead of just playing their new one.  They played Trains and Blackest Eyes.  I was probably the youngest person there.

So good.

I feel as by myself as I did three summers ago.  That kind of quiet where you listen to Cat Power, stop talking, and buy cigarettes.  I'm going to go get some smokes, it might be nice.

and I don't know what one does about that.

I sort of had a mad awakening this weekend.  I'm tired of being optimistic, and hopeful, and satisfied.  Not to say I'm not going to be my goof-self, but I'm not going to expect anything anymore.  At the end of the day, it just comes down to the bills I can't pay, the papers I can't write, and the language that I can't learn.  Oh, and did I mention ( Read more... )

Sooo, fuck this past weekend...

我最好去工作。
我希望她坐。

It always bothers me when I forget how amazing Acid Bath is.  But then again, it's always good to hear it when you haven't in a while.  I hate everyone who hates them and love everyone who loves them.  That's not fair.  And not completely true ( Read more... )

I think I've taken a turn back to apathy.  I don't get mad anymore, I just can't care about anything that happens to me or anything I do to others.  Sometimes I wonder if it's getting destructive - I don't know, maybe.
Maybe I just need something to get serious about.  Nothing feels natural right now.

I'm glad I figured out the truth; about who Jesus really was.