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Aug 06, 2009 02:46

Things hit me in waves. Most of the time, I feel ok. Most of the time I focus on whatever it is that I am doing or that needs to get done for the day. I focus on my friends and good times and trying to actualize my plan of getting out of Bristol ( Read more... )

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jack0falltrades August 6 2009, 15:18:13 UTC

I have to say, it's hard to be standing where I am and watch you go through this again, to hear this story again. How many times has he done this to you? How many times have you explained to him that he is not, in fact, protecting you by fucking you over, and how many times has he said he is going to change, and then turned around and gotten right back in to what he is doing? How many times are you going to let this happen ( ... )

alilquirky August 6 2009, 19:41:25 UTC

No I think I like those exact words.
And I know you're right. Doesn't make it easy.

jack0falltrades August 7 2009, 13:57:52 UTC

I know. I'm trying to insert your situation as a scenario applicable to my life (what if somebody important in my life that I had a huge thing for suddenly said we were perfect together but it just couldn't happen?) That would suck. And it would be hard, I can only imagine.
But if you keep putting your life on hold for him, and especially if he keeps not coming through for you, then you're going to be pissed not only at him, but yourself.

adventure333 August 6 2009, 16:08:08 UTC

Like you said... this is a tumor... a cancer. Tumor's have to be cut out and then the recovery period is very difficult for a person. Especially one that is so deeply ingrained. Same with cancer. There are horrible side effects that people go through to overcome it. It is a constant uphill battle and those emotional and physical scars never go away. You never forget. But the survivors are just that... they have survived. They have the gift of life. You have been living in a constant pain. It is time to regain life to the utmost fulfillment attainable. Right now, that is not with Alex ( ... )

alilquirky August 6 2009, 19:42:26 UTC

*hugs* Thanks Steph.

lubell6 August 10 2009, 04:15:57 UTC

alilquirky August 10 2009, 18:11:56 UTC

No I know what you mean, I feel the same way. Like I'm less crazy cuz you get it. We need to get together again sometime very soon.