So I was @ a party and there was a shooting and some guy got shot in the back and a guy pretty much right next to me in the leg. It took 4 shots for me to react, it was weird but @ the same time takin a sip of my hefeweizen didn't help. I'm drifting away from a person I truly love and its weird! I'm not benefiting from waiting and she's doing ( Read more... )

I think I'm becoming numb, becoming a person I never saw my self being....I'm really hating these past couple of days and I'm @ the verge of giving up! I'm almost careless bout everything and everyone, I don't wanna become this person but who knows what will happen, maybe its just a phaze? Who gives a fuck!

Today is officialy the shittiest day ever....I feel like such crap about everything I've done and been doing and everything that's going on and just god damn life's a fucking bummer right now, and I hate writting about this bullshit on here but hey I have no one to talk to so that's pretty cool too

I miss her so so much and I can't wait for the day when everything is all better again, I know what I have to do and I'm gonna try my hardest to do it, I'm not giving up...I'm wayyyy to in love to just walk away.......all I ask is for a bit of support from friends, even though I haven't been acting like my self, sorry just hope you guys are there ( Read more... )

Listening to SAOIN wondering when it'll be pee-wee herman time again ]; and wondering why the best things in life are so damn hard to hold on too! I'm seriously scared I'm gonna start drfiting away from friends soon because of weird insercurities I have of my self, I feel like I'm never gonna be able to be the person I wanna be, not because I'm ( Read more... )

So I'm finally 18! Thought it would be a big deal but it honetsly isn't, well I got some really cool gifts and I'd like to thank my wonderful gf for that, and for succeding in making me happy in one way or another yesterday, I LOVE YA. I'd also like to thank my bro Benji Ruiz for the quick surprise visit and all of you who actually wished me a ( Read more... )

LOW!

so far my summer has involved going to work and sitting around my boring ass house and thats it!! so if this is what summmers gonna be like....i say fuck it!

I need a NEW job =(

So today i went to buy some illegal fireworks from my friends blind uncle with some buddies and we waited soo long just to get our hands on 80 bucks worth of works LAME! and i have a huge feeling tomorrow is gonna suck ass! today has been boring annoying and i just hate everyone and everything about today!
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