I'm doing okay, I guess. The job is still going strong. They asked me to be full time so, yay! Now I'm making more than I did at Waly-World. I have so much stuff I have to pay for and get before I can just go shopping happy. Which kinda sucks, but I can deal. I'm trying to be all "Adult" like. *lol ( Read more... )

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Sugarcult - Pretty Girl (The Way ( Read more... )

Happy be-lated 18th Birthday Alyse.!.

her b-day was yesterday..
all she did was bitch about this and that
i kinda didn't wanna chill with her because of it
lately i've been question alot of shit
some having to do with alyse.

i might be going to chill with johnny
i hope we have fun
yaynessfor some reason i smell pop corn ( Read more... )

i miss everything about you i never had
i tell myself everything well be okay in the end
i tend to lie to myself
alot
i wish too often that i wasn't here
i find myself sometimes hoping not to wake up
i hate that he gets away with every fucking thing
i cry when only alone
i gave you myself and all you could say was "i'm sorry"
which made the tears ( Read more... )

July 11, 2005

<3 * <3 * <3
Happy 47th Birthday Father.

just because i may not talk to you and i may not care to have anything to do with you at this point in time.. i am thinking of you and trying hard to find it in my heart to forgive you..

All my Love,
Your Daughter.

7.6.05 @ 2:46am
eyes tired
hair wet
wrapped in a towel
purple flowers
coldness

3:05am
love
hate

wants
needs

hopes
dreams

killing
screaming

lying
cheating

heartache
sorrow

8is pm
want him
need him
hate him
miss him
love him
could never have him
regret seeing him
miss his voice
loved his touch
should never have done it

i'm weird this i know. ( Read more... )

finding my heart with love
just to have lost it with sorrow
the pain is unheard of
unspeakable
and always felt
always