In which I am an emo (and also hello)

[akisazame]

I'm not even sure what I'm doing.

Sometimes I feel like I've changed a lot, and then I realize I haven't changed at all.

Comments

[miss_next]

Hey. Cheer up, E.

There is nothing wrong with you. You're not a failure. You're just having a confidence problem right now. A confidence problem, even a serious and prolonged one, does not make you a failure. It just makes you miserable. It also doesn't mean other people don't care about you.

I'm here to talk if you want, OK? And incidentally, while we're here, do you know what happened to Yuan? I deleted my Blurty in the end, but she disappeared long before that.

[akisazame]

Thank you. I'll try.

(iirc yuan is now diabola)

[padraiceen]

Leading this off with the following: I loved reading things you wrote and kept wishing you'd write more so I could read them. It was like another, entirely different window into you.

I know I'm probably not the best source for inspiration or anything because a) we see each other all the time (for example, right now), and b) because I feel like some of it's my fault because I feel like I monopolize your time.

Instead of rambling like I usually do, I'll just say: try not to be as afraid of failing. If you fail, you fail, and then you dust yourself off and try again. Making the attempt is the only way to succeed.

[teostra]

:( You 100% do NOT fail at being interesting, missy.

[akisazame]

Realtalk: I really regret not getting the chance to hang out with you more that one time at Fanime.

[chisotahn]

So I was going to comment on this and instead ended up writing a goddamn novel, so I e-mailed it to you instead! I hope the address I have for you (toukakoukan) is still active~

[akisazame]

Thank you for the email!! I shall respond once I'm done responding here :)

[frigoris]

Man, this post could so easily be something I wrote it's almost creepy. I know that's not very helpful to you, E, but for what it's worth I at least kind of understand how you feel. I worry so much about being a burden to other people I tend to be an island onto myself. Heck, I hardly ever IM you for the same reason you know, as much as it shames me to admit it. I worry that I'd be bothering you.

As for the rest, for me at least, it kind of feels like that one Coulton song: What if the best that I can be just isn't good enough? Isn't it better not to know? I avoid things because I'm scared, I don't think I'm good enough and because of that I avoid even trying. I mean, heck, my whole life since I've graduated college has been pretty much in limbo because of that

[akisazame]

One of the downfalls of being a creative thinker is that you can instantly imagine countless scenarios in which everything goes horribly, horribly wrong.

But no, seriously, thank you for this. Don't be an island. Or, alternately, let's be like... a cluster of islands.