[fic] Heal Me - Fifth Cut ~Beginning the Lies~
Title: Heal Me
Pairing: Jin x Kame
Rating: NC-17
Genre - Catch Me: AU, angst, romance, smut, drama, tragedy
Beta by: my cat. okay, seriously, nobody
Disclaimer: I don't own KAT-TUN, any of its members, any other JE people. I write this for fun and for other fans of these fine folks. But don't steal my plots, mmkay? I put a great deal of time into them except for when I'm randomly spastically spitting words onto a page. But I value those too...
Summary - Catch Me: A dramatic turn in his life throws Kame into Jin's college world. Almost immediately they notice an attraction, but they spend more time clashing than not.
Summary - Lose Me: Kame and Jin still have the occasional argument but mostly they live happily together. But when someone from Kame's past shows up, will the two be able to deal?
Summary - Find Me: Kame has been kidnapped. Will he and Jin ever be reunited?
Summary - Heal Me: The difficult task of readjusting to a normal life... will they make it through together?
Warning: While "Catch Me" part is more towards the fluffy end of the scale at times, the other three parts have such things as drugs and murder and rape and all the fun parts of a bad neighborhood in a big city. Oh, and character death(s).
On my journal: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_ Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the kattun_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
A/N: Sorry missed last night, stupid firefox making stupid livejournal stop working evil grr.
Heal Me
Fifth Cut ~Beginning the Lies~
When Kame got back to campus from his little adventure, he found all of his friends in the common room. Jin and Koki were pacing irritably. Everyone looked so scared.
“What’s going on?” Kame asked. “Did something happen?”
“Oh thank god, Kazu!” Jin practically ran over him in an attempt to capture him in a fierce hug. “Where were you? I was worried sick! We all were!”
Blinking, Kame replied, “I went for a walk. Didn’t you read my note?” He hadn’t actually written one. He should have, but he was a bit narrowly focused at the time. But maybe he could play it off like this?
“What note? I didn’t find a note! You’ve been gone over an hour!”
Pretending to be angry, Kame pushed Jin off of him. “I’m allowed to go for walks. It’s not my fault if you didn’t read the damn note and you got worried because of it. Look, I just needed some fresh air, okay? Away from all the people.” And he stormed off to their room.
With a quick glance behind him to make sure he hadn’t been followed yet, Kame quickly pulled out his wallet and stashed the drugs in the far back of his desk drawer except for a single sachet. He took that with him and locked himself in the bathroom.
Just in time, too. He heard Jin’s voice and then a knock on the bathroom door.
“Go away…”
“But… but… you closed the door… Not just closed it. You locked it. I’m worried about you, Kazuya.”
“I’m fine.” Kame took the drugs and flushed the little ziplock bag down the toilet. There wasn’t a mirror in there anymore but he did his best to make sure he was presentable and that there was no evidence on him of the drugs. “But if it’ll make you feel better, I’ll come out.”
He unlocked the door and opened it. He was starting to feel the rush that he’d wanted for days. Kame hadn’t realized just how much he’d wanted this. Maybe that’s why he’d been so edgy recently and why sometimes it seemed like his mind didn’t bother making decent recordings for his memory.
Unfortunately, he was used to at least sitting if not lying down by the time the high first hit. He stumbled on his way out. He’d probably have fallen flat on his face if Jin hadn’t caught him. “Kame?”
What should he say? What would be believable? Maybe… “Sorry. Maybe I did overtax myself a bit. I’ll take a shorter walk next time. Help me to the bed?”
“Sure…”
Once Kame was sitting on the bed, Jin kissed him on the forehead and asked him, “Do you want me to go so you can rest?”
Giggling, Kame pulled him down for a much different kind of kiss, slow and sensual. When it ended, he whispered against Jin’s lips, “Close the door. I don’t think we need an audience for what we’re about to do…” And he kissed Jin again.
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Jin walked over and closed the door quietly. Truthfully, he was a bit confused. Yesterday Kame didn’t even want him to see him naked and now he suddenly wanted to make love? Or… was this like what happened with Koki the other day?
By the time Jin got back to the bed, Kame had already shucked his own shirt off and thrown it somewhere on the floor. He was reclined on the bed, one hand lying on the bed and the other tracing circles on his stomach. He looked expectant and relaxed all at once. The sight was enough to make Jin’s breath catch in his throat.
“Are… are you sure you’re ready…?”
In a husky voice, Kame said, “I want you, Jin…” And he licked his lips.
And that was all it took. Jin pulled his own shirt off and climbed on the bed on his side, carefully moving Kame’s hand from his stomach so he could replace it with his own. Kame’s whole body quivered at the delicate caresses Jin scattered across his chest and stomach.
He’d always been so sensitive, Jin remembered. And Jin had so missed the feel of him beneath his hands. He meant to go slowly but once he started touching Kame, two and a half month’s worth of longing came to him in a rush. His touches became more demanding and he started licking his way down Kame’s neck, nipping ever so slightly here and there. Continuing down the chest, he flicked his tongue across first one and then the other of Kame’s nipples.
Jin used to believe that Kame’s sweet jasmine scent was his perfume but over the time they’ve known each other, he discovered it wasn’t true. It was just the way Kame smelled.
Despite his fevered writhing, Kame managed to slide a hand down Jin’s stomach to the waist of his jeans. He slipped his hand beneath the fabric and… oh, god, he’d gotten better. Jin thought it wasn’t possible. He moaned loudly as his eyes fluttered closed. He actually had to stop Kame, to keep from coming before they even removed their pants.
“Kame… I’m sorry… I’m… close… already… so soon…” he breathed. “It’s been… while… You feel so good…”
Kame giggled again. Jin treasured the sound. “Maybe take off our pants, then. I want you inside me, right now, Mister!” Jin noticed that, despite the playful attitude, Kame was breathing just as hard as he was and a quick downward glance showed him pressed just as painfully against the tight fabric of his pants as Jin was his.
“Good idea.” And Jin licked the rest of the way down, pulling Kame’s pants off as he went and then quickly removing his own. Kame pulled him back up for a passionate kiss.
Whispering in Jin’s ear, Kame said, “Take me…”
“What about…”
“Are you going to make me beg?”
So Jin stopped worrying and carefully entered him. At Kame’s sharp intake of breath and the sudden closing of his eyes, Jin stopped, but Kame bucked his hips in an attempt to finish what Jin had stopped. Hint taken. Once he was completely inside him, he began a slow rhythm, trying to keep from hurting Kame before he’d loosened up enough.
But Kame begged, “No, please… harder. Faster… Please!”
“You’re still so tight, Kazu-chan. I don’t want to hurt you.”
“Please! It doesn’t hurt, I promise.”
So Jin let go of the last vestiges of his inhibition and gave Kame exactly what he asked for. And when they both had their release, Jin rolled off of him to lie beside him, taking hold of his hand.
Kame purred, “God, that felt good. We should do that again sometime.”
Laughing, Jin said, “I agree.” Kame seemed so different right then, like the issues that had been weighing on him were suddenly lifted. Maybe… maybe it was the right time to ask Kame to talk about what happened to him. He might be more able to handle it. Not that Jin wanted to cause Kame any more pain but…
“Nee, Kame, what happened to you? What did Ryo do?”
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Stretching, Kame considered before answering Jin. Truthfully, he felt really good at that moment and the story would definitely not be pleasant to tell. On the other hand, Jin would keep bothering him about it forever.
His body was starting to get heavy. Maybe he should just tell him a little and then claim to be tired, so Jin would leave and he could just enjoy himself until the drugs wore off.
In a somewhat lazy voice, Kame started his story. “After he made me call you, he took me to some place, through alleyways. He put me in a room with no windows and no chairs. Just blackness and hard concrete. He brought some food and a lantern and a blanket, I think a couple days later? It was so hard to tell in that dark room… He made me get on my knees. I had to…” but Kame paused, unable to complete his sentence. Instead, he continued, “When he got tired of that he had me again but on that cold, hard floor. And he did that every time he came to visit.”
“That must have been the building we found,” Jin murmured.
“I don’t know how long I was there but I knew I had to get out. So when Ryo showed up, I was waiting so that when he stepped right past me into the room, I could shove him in. So I and then I ran and ran and ran. I found a phone and I called you but then he caught up to me. And I held onto that phone as tightly as I could but he hit me and I lost my grip on it. I did my best…”
“I know you did. I could hear you. You did very good. Maybe… maybe that’s a good place to stop now, Kame. You seem exhausted. I’ll go find something else to do, let you rest. Unless you want me to stay and hold you.”
“I think I’ll be okay for a while by myself. Just… you know, leave the door open.”
Kissing him on the forehead again, Jin quietly dressed and left. He didn’t forget to leave the door open.
Now Kame could just bask, not think about anything but the here and now.
Only a few minutes later, Junno poked his head in the room. “Iriguchi deguchi… Taguchi… desu?” he said hesitantly. Kame rolled his eyes.
“What, Junno?” He turned on his side to face his friend at the door.
Junno took a quick look at him and then got this strange look. Kame’d never seen a look like that on him, he was pretty sure. It didn’t seem to be a bad look, however, so let him have whatever look he wanted.
“Hmm… maybe I’ll come back later. You look… tired.”
“The bed didn’t tell you that?” Kame rolled his eyes again.
“Yeah, I’ll come back another time. Bye!” and Junno ran back down the hall.
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The story continues:
Sixth Cut ~Perpetual Confusion~
A/N: No, Kame! Don't lie to Jin!
Pairing: Jin x Kame
Rating: NC-17
Genre - Catch Me: AU, angst, romance, smut, drama, tragedy
Beta by: my cat. okay, seriously, nobody
Disclaimer: I don't own KAT-TUN, any of its members, any other JE people. I write this for fun and for other fans of these fine folks. But don't steal my plots, mmkay? I put a great deal of time into them except for when I'm randomly spastically spitting words onto a page. But I value those too...
Summary - Catch Me: A dramatic turn in his life throws Kame into Jin's college world. Almost immediately they notice an attraction, but they spend more time clashing than not.
Summary - Lose Me: Kame and Jin still have the occasional argument but mostly they live happily together. But when someone from Kame's past shows up, will the two be able to deal?
Summary - Find Me: Kame has been kidnapped. Will he and Jin ever be reunited?
Summary - Heal Me: The difficult task of readjusting to a normal life... will they make it through together?
Warning: While "Catch Me" part is more towards the fluffy end of the scale at times, the other three parts have such things as drugs and murder and rape and all the fun parts of a bad neighborhood in a big city. Oh, and character death(s).
On my journal: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_ Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the akame_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
On the kattun_fanfics Community: Catch Me, Lose Me, Find Me, Heal Me
A/N: Sorry missed last night, stupid firefox making stupid livejournal stop working evil grr.
Heal Me
Fifth Cut ~Beginning the Lies~
When Kame got back to campus from his little adventure, he found all of his friends in the common room. Jin and Koki were pacing irritably. Everyone looked so scared.
“What’s going on?” Kame asked. “Did something happen?”
“Oh thank god, Kazu!” Jin practically ran over him in an attempt to capture him in a fierce hug. “Where were you? I was worried sick! We all were!”
Blinking, Kame replied, “I went for a walk. Didn’t you read my note?” He hadn’t actually written one. He should have, but he was a bit narrowly focused at the time. But maybe he could play it off like this?
“What note? I didn’t find a note! You’ve been gone over an hour!”
Pretending to be angry, Kame pushed Jin off of him. “I’m allowed to go for walks. It’s not my fault if you didn’t read the damn note and you got worried because of it. Look, I just needed some fresh air, okay? Away from all the people.” And he stormed off to their room.
With a quick glance behind him to make sure he hadn’t been followed yet, Kame quickly pulled out his wallet and stashed the drugs in the far back of his desk drawer except for a single sachet. He took that with him and locked himself in the bathroom.
Just in time, too. He heard Jin’s voice and then a knock on the bathroom door.
“Go away…”
“But… but… you closed the door… Not just closed it. You locked it. I’m worried about you, Kazuya.”
“I’m fine.” Kame took the drugs and flushed the little ziplock bag down the toilet. There wasn’t a mirror in there anymore but he did his best to make sure he was presentable and that there was no evidence on him of the drugs. “But if it’ll make you feel better, I’ll come out.”
He unlocked the door and opened it. He was starting to feel the rush that he’d wanted for days. Kame hadn’t realized just how much he’d wanted this. Maybe that’s why he’d been so edgy recently and why sometimes it seemed like his mind didn’t bother making decent recordings for his memory.
Unfortunately, he was used to at least sitting if not lying down by the time the high first hit. He stumbled on his way out. He’d probably have fallen flat on his face if Jin hadn’t caught him. “Kame?”
What should he say? What would be believable? Maybe… “Sorry. Maybe I did overtax myself a bit. I’ll take a shorter walk next time. Help me to the bed?”
“Sure…”
Once Kame was sitting on the bed, Jin kissed him on the forehead and asked him, “Do you want me to go so you can rest?”
Giggling, Kame pulled him down for a much different kind of kiss, slow and sensual. When it ended, he whispered against Jin’s lips, “Close the door. I don’t think we need an audience for what we’re about to do…” And he kissed Jin again.
+++
Jin walked over and closed the door quietly. Truthfully, he was a bit confused. Yesterday Kame didn’t even want him to see him naked and now he suddenly wanted to make love? Or… was this like what happened with Koki the other day?
By the time Jin got back to the bed, Kame had already shucked his own shirt off and thrown it somewhere on the floor. He was reclined on the bed, one hand lying on the bed and the other tracing circles on his stomach. He looked expectant and relaxed all at once. The sight was enough to make Jin’s breath catch in his throat.
“Are… are you sure you’re ready…?”
In a husky voice, Kame said, “I want you, Jin…” And he licked his lips.
And that was all it took. Jin pulled his own shirt off and climbed on the bed on his side, carefully moving Kame’s hand from his stomach so he could replace it with his own. Kame’s whole body quivered at the delicate caresses Jin scattered across his chest and stomach.
He’d always been so sensitive, Jin remembered. And Jin had so missed the feel of him beneath his hands. He meant to go slowly but once he started touching Kame, two and a half month’s worth of longing came to him in a rush. His touches became more demanding and he started licking his way down Kame’s neck, nipping ever so slightly here and there. Continuing down the chest, he flicked his tongue across first one and then the other of Kame’s nipples.
Jin used to believe that Kame’s sweet jasmine scent was his perfume but over the time they’ve known each other, he discovered it wasn’t true. It was just the way Kame smelled.
Despite his fevered writhing, Kame managed to slide a hand down Jin’s stomach to the waist of his jeans. He slipped his hand beneath the fabric and… oh, god, he’d gotten better. Jin thought it wasn’t possible. He moaned loudly as his eyes fluttered closed. He actually had to stop Kame, to keep from coming before they even removed their pants.
“Kame… I’m sorry… I’m… close… already… so soon…” he breathed. “It’s been… while… You feel so good…”
Kame giggled again. Jin treasured the sound. “Maybe take off our pants, then. I want you inside me, right now, Mister!” Jin noticed that, despite the playful attitude, Kame was breathing just as hard as he was and a quick downward glance showed him pressed just as painfully against the tight fabric of his pants as Jin was his.
“Good idea.” And Jin licked the rest of the way down, pulling Kame’s pants off as he went and then quickly removing his own. Kame pulled him back up for a passionate kiss.
Whispering in Jin’s ear, Kame said, “Take me…”
“What about…”
“Are you going to make me beg?”
So Jin stopped worrying and carefully entered him. At Kame’s sharp intake of breath and the sudden closing of his eyes, Jin stopped, but Kame bucked his hips in an attempt to finish what Jin had stopped. Hint taken. Once he was completely inside him, he began a slow rhythm, trying to keep from hurting Kame before he’d loosened up enough.
But Kame begged, “No, please… harder. Faster… Please!”
“You’re still so tight, Kazu-chan. I don’t want to hurt you.”
“Please! It doesn’t hurt, I promise.”
So Jin let go of the last vestiges of his inhibition and gave Kame exactly what he asked for. And when they both had their release, Jin rolled off of him to lie beside him, taking hold of his hand.
Kame purred, “God, that felt good. We should do that again sometime.”
Laughing, Jin said, “I agree.” Kame seemed so different right then, like the issues that had been weighing on him were suddenly lifted. Maybe… maybe it was the right time to ask Kame to talk about what happened to him. He might be more able to handle it. Not that Jin wanted to cause Kame any more pain but…
“Nee, Kame, what happened to you? What did Ryo do?”
+++
Stretching, Kame considered before answering Jin. Truthfully, he felt really good at that moment and the story would definitely not be pleasant to tell. On the other hand, Jin would keep bothering him about it forever.
His body was starting to get heavy. Maybe he should just tell him a little and then claim to be tired, so Jin would leave and he could just enjoy himself until the drugs wore off.
In a somewhat lazy voice, Kame started his story. “After he made me call you, he took me to some place, through alleyways. He put me in a room with no windows and no chairs. Just blackness and hard concrete. He brought some food and a lantern and a blanket, I think a couple days later? It was so hard to tell in that dark room… He made me get on my knees. I had to…” but Kame paused, unable to complete his sentence. Instead, he continued, “When he got tired of that he had me again but on that cold, hard floor. And he did that every time he came to visit.”
“That must have been the building we found,” Jin murmured.
“I don’t know how long I was there but I knew I had to get out. So when Ryo showed up, I was waiting so that when he stepped right past me into the room, I could shove him in. So I and then I ran and ran and ran. I found a phone and I called you but then he caught up to me. And I held onto that phone as tightly as I could but he hit me and I lost my grip on it. I did my best…”
“I know you did. I could hear you. You did very good. Maybe… maybe that’s a good place to stop now, Kame. You seem exhausted. I’ll go find something else to do, let you rest. Unless you want me to stay and hold you.”
“I think I’ll be okay for a while by myself. Just… you know, leave the door open.”
Kissing him on the forehead again, Jin quietly dressed and left. He didn’t forget to leave the door open.
Now Kame could just bask, not think about anything but the here and now.
Only a few minutes later, Junno poked his head in the room. “Iriguchi deguchi… Taguchi… desu?” he said hesitantly. Kame rolled his eyes.
“What, Junno?” He turned on his side to face his friend at the door.
Junno took a quick look at him and then got this strange look. Kame’d never seen a look like that on him, he was pretty sure. It didn’t seem to be a bad look, however, so let him have whatever look he wanted.
“Hmm… maybe I’ll come back later. You look… tired.”
“The bed didn’t tell you that?” Kame rolled his eyes again.
“Yeah, I’ll come back another time. Bye!” and Junno ran back down the hall.
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The story continues:
Sixth Cut ~Perpetual Confusion~
A/N: No, Kame! Don't lie to Jin!