I don't know what dark room I was led into, but it's left me disquieted and confused. I feel like I'm watching these two part ways from a few feet away and mourning the tragedy of their circumstances while fearing the violent emotion fueling this encounter. Their pain. With each other they find torment and succor, pain and pleasure.
I feel a bit numb myself after reading this, like I've been beaten alongside Buffy and Spike. It's almost like looking too closely at something so volatile and nefarious - that dark emotion, that emptiness inside her during Season 6. The hunger that claws, grapples and scratches. Wanting to hurt in order to heal. Physical pain to distract the emotional void. And after the violent physical release, you're left weak and wanting. I can easily imagine Buffy numbly walking home to crawl into her bed, only to repeat this vicious cycle the next day. Frightening and bitter.
What a dark mood you were in tonight. Powerful stuff here.
I really love the way you put that. It seemed that was just what Buffy was trying to do in Season Six, not realizing that it was also self destructive. And Buffy numbly walking home to crawl into her bed was exactly what imagined happened after this story.
I suppose I was in a bit of a dark mood last night. I know I had just had a talk with my writing professor about a class I'm doing bad in thanks to my family life, and I was a little emotional after explaining to him everything that has been going on. Maybe that I had an effect on this. *shruggs* I hope it wasn't too dark for you, though!
It hurt my heart to write it. But those two characters were eaching hurting (themselves and eachother) in that season and I can't seem write it without putting some of that in.
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Thanks for reading and commenting, hun!
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I feel a bit numb myself after reading this, like I've been beaten alongside Buffy and Spike. It's almost like looking too closely at something so volatile and nefarious - that dark emotion, that emptiness inside her during Season 6. The hunger that claws, grapples and scratches. Wanting to hurt in order to heal. Physical pain to distract the emotional void. And after the violent physical release, you're left weak and wanting. I can easily imagine Buffy numbly walking home to crawl into her bed, only to repeat this vicious cycle the next day. Frightening and bitter.
What a dark mood you were in tonight. Powerful stuff here.
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Wanting to hurt in order to heal.
I really love the way you put that. It seemed that was just what Buffy was trying to do in Season Six, not realizing that it was also self destructive. And Buffy numbly walking home to crawl into her bed was exactly what imagined happened after this story.
I suppose I was in a bit of a dark mood last night. I know I had just had a talk with my writing professor about a class I'm doing bad in thanks to my family life, and I was a little emotional after explaining to him everything that has been going on. Maybe that I had an effect on this. *shruggs* I hope it wasn't too dark for you, though!
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Thanks for reading. :)
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Thanks you for reading and commetning, hun. :)
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Season 6 - for both of them - pain and desolation.
This ficlet is wrenching, despondent and despairing.
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wrenching, despondent and despairing
Thank you, hun. Those are great compliments for an angst writer. :)
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