Tuesday

[ailsaek]

I have a headache. I also have an essay in my head about chronic depression, and how friggin' annoying it is, but I'm not sure I have the patience to write it

Comments

[butterflymama3]

I could have written most of this essay too. Chronic depression sucks. There are no two ways about it. Medication is crucial to my life. Without it I would be curled up in the fetal position hiding under my covers. That little voice you hear, I hear it too. (hugs) If you need to/want to talk more - I'm here.

[ailsaek]

Thanks, I'd love to talk about it more with someone else who's got the same problem. (I'm probably also going to go on posting at length about it today. I think a bubble in my brain burst today or something.)

[butterflymama3]

you can email me at ilefkowitz at gmail or if you are a phone person let me know and i'll give you my number.

[ailsaek]

Thank you (for having done so, and for having told me so).

[hammercock]

I loved Prozac, too, when I was on it several years back. I remember the ran-out-haven't-refilled-yet withdrawal, too. Ouch.

*hug*

[spinrabbit]

The inside of my head isn't usually a very sensory place -- mostly I experience it as narrative, with words but without voice or print. So I don't have a voice screaming at me. But when I've been really depressed, one of the threads goes "Gee, if I suddenly turned the steering wheel, I'd run into that bridge abutment! Or how about walking in front of a truck, that'd be novel. I wonder if there's a way to open this airplane window. That's a really really sharp knife there, wouldn't slitting my wrists be intriguing?" Even when there's a good mood overlaying the depression, that track can keep going, even when I've got the "No, that wouldn't be interesting, being dead would SUCK, I have fabulous plans" counter-thread running, the suicidal one can keep nattering on at me. Fortunately, right now workouts are being sufficient to keep the gremlins at bay, and I've got a stash of Zyban+citalopram for if/when I need them again.

Thanks for talking, I'm listening.

--Rachel

[jtroutman]

received and understood. hope you feel better.