[YamaChii] Eye-risque Planetarium [1/?]
The Eye-risque Planetarium
© ainomesseji
Genre: Slice of Life, Romance, Drama, Angst. Pairing: YamaChii, One-sided ChiiTaro
Summary: Never once in his life did he imagine nor have had this double thinking that someone he trusted with everything that he has and with everything that he loves, will be the first person who will be the one to break into pieces the person that means the world to him and his heart. Worst of it all, it’s not just anyone else. It’s not just a friend or a mere acquaintance. It’s a person that he holds close, a family. It’s his beloved younger brother.
Part One
A Lover’s Sweet Adieu
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Somehow in this world, even if the trees are greener, even if the air is cleaner, and even if the water cascading down on the mainstream is as blue as the open sky. There are things, so hideous and so terrifying, that are hidden through all of these aesthetically, wonderful gifts that nature could provide. Because if one will choose not to be blind and just look more into the wounded side of the world, one could openly see the decaying truth. One could easily convey the lie and the tragedy that is being woven by man itself.
And all of these are honest facts. These are painful truths that can shatter a heart. These are anguish reality that bites and burns a soul. Because truthfully speaking; things aren’t really turning out okay for the world. Everything is losing the touch of life and its preserved gifts-peace and harmony. Yet, even if the world is now filled with nothing but the scent of death, people screaming for salvation, children begging to see a brighter future-gunshots, bloodsheds, and battlefields filled with soldiers and their broken frames. Amongst those anxieties, amongst those pain and broken apathy, amongst those lives ruined, amongst those country left battered with no more place to go. No more future to seek. Amongst those broken things and amongst those lonely and abandoned places, there exists a place-a place where white lilies bloom freely and wildly, where everything is happy and where everything has a better end of the road.
And, that one place that exists. It can change everyone’s view. It can make everyone say that after a storm there will always be a colorful rainbow, and that there lies a better and much brighter future for each and every one of us. And, that’s where the two of them are, and that’s where they will build their forever together. Because even if the world is torn and everything is falling apart. The two of them believes that there will always be a brighter tomorrow and a better future for the two of them, especially after this war ends. And of course, after he has served his country for the last time and bid his farewell to what he dedicated his world to, dedicated his whole life to-being a soldier.
“…After all this, I would like to live in a small comfy home in the country side and build a family there.” A brown haired man hummed as he looked up at the star-filled night sky, before he glanced at the person beside him and smiled. “…sounds beautiful, right?” he asked as he took that small hand, interlaced it with his and kissed it, before smiling lovingly again at the person lying next to him. “I see.” The person, resting his head on the older man’s chest, chuckled, which in return made the brown haired man pout, especially from the lack of emotions relayed back to his vague proposal. While, the little one at the matter, who is feigning innocence and acting as if he didn’t realize what the older one is trying to imply, decided to just kid around. ”…Then I guess, all you need is a wife that can bear you cute little tykes, right? Then your dream is as perfect as you imagine it to be.” the little one, who’s still wrapped in that warm embrace, joked, which seems to be a bad idea, because the older one of the two. He didn’t seem to take his joke something that lightly. Because, the moment those words left his little love’s mouth did he felt a pang of pain stab it’s way to his heart. He felt rejected. So to erase his little feelings of woe, he decided to protest and fight for his heart and his dream. His dream to be with the person lying right here in his arms, “No,” The brown haired man rebuked, before he let go of that small hand and just cupped those loved cheeks into his palms. “…a cute little husband and an adopted son would be enough for me. I don’t need a wife to have myself a family. I am perfectly fine with this. I am perfectly fine with us. I am perfectly fine with my beloved Chinen Yuri,” the older male stated in a serious tone that took the little one by a surprise.
But Yuri, seeing those determined and filled with honesty and love brown irises of his lover, just stared back without any conviction and without any doubt. Because really, Yuri knows and he did understand every bits and pieces of those undying words, of those filled with love proposal. And, he won’t deny it. He is as happy as anyone could be, maybe, even more happy. Yet still, he just didn’t want to cry. That’s why he tried to joke it all out. He tried his best to kid around, because at least, maybe if he did. His beloved one will still have more of a purpose to come back and to just do his proposal more properly that time around. Although, even if it’s a selfish thing to do, still, knowing that his Ryosuke loves him that much and knowing that his Ryosuke is now dedicating his whole world to him only, his Chinen Yuri. He really couldn’t help but feel warm and secure inside. He just really feels happy. It’s like a sense of pride. Pride that he has someone like his Yamada Ryosuke for all his life. “…I know, Ryosuke. I know…so, don’t think too much, okay?” a sweet smile, before those small hands began to trace that loved face of his beloved one, who in return of the gesture, purred in utmost contentment.
Giggling, Yuri couldn’t help but feel blessed of this person lying beside him. That’s why, thinking that in a few more days they need to part and be separated for a few months, without any reassurance of safety for the older one. The little one couldn’t help but feel scared, especially if he’ll think of ever losing his beloved person in the whole wide world. Especially now, now that they are already planning on their future together-together forever. “…Geez, I was just kidding around, Ryosuke, so please don’t look at me like that.” Yuri cooed as he pinches those chubby cheeks. “…but you are being mean to me…” the brown haired man wailed as he gave his little one another cute pout. Seeing that cute antics, Yuri couldn’t help but suddenly say what his heart has been screaming for too long now. “...I’ll miss this.” Yuri whispered suddenly, and that made the older one smile sadly, as he kisses the tip of his little one’s nose. “…but, I’ll miss you more and more and more and more...” Ryosuke chanted as he kisses Yuri on his forehead, nose, eyelids, brows, cheeks and then his-“…I’ll miss this place. I’ll even miss the people here. But, what I’ll badly miss is this.” He pointed at Yuri’s heart, “…and this even more.” The older man’s voice lingered as tears slowly streamed down his brown orbs, while he stares lovingly at his little angel. “…I’ll miss my Yuri more and more.” He cried out as he watches as his tears blend in with his little one’s tears as well. “Day and night, night and day…until forevermore…I’ll miss my Yuri always and forevermore…” he rasped, breathe hitching, as he tries to subdue his sobs of agony and pain, because it simply just hurts. It hurts to part from the one person that he doesn’t want to leave ever. His fallen grace, his little angel, his fated person and the little one who’s been completing his world and becoming his everything, “…I’ll come back to you. I promise, I will.” He whispered against his beloved’s ears, before he closed the gap between them in a very sweet and passionate kiss.
“…Ryo-Ryosuke…” Yuri moaned when he felt the older one’s lips glaze his. “…ngh…” he whimpered as he allowed those lips and that body to hover over him as he slid his hands on those lean shoulders, before they moved up to tangle themselves against those brown locks that he’ll miss so much. Especially once the older male is gone. “…I love you.” The little one whispered in between their kisses. While the latter, he just pried on those lips, savoring each moment and cherishing it while it is still there. Because how much he promises himself and his little one that he’ll come back, he still can’t decide his fate. It’s all up to God’s will if he’ll survive the war. It’s all up to God’s written story if their promise will be fulfilled or not. “…I love you more, Yuri. I love you so much more…” He whispered as he leaned in forward again to have better access of his little one’s lips as he kissed him again and again and again. And the little angel, being surprised by the sudden motion, let out a gasp that gave the older one a chance to slip his tongue inside that sweet cavern, that he favors more to taste and lap than his favorite strawberry. “…promise me, you’ll come back…” Yuri suddenly blurted out, while desperation is evident on his sweet voice. “…I will. I promise. I will…try…” Ryosuke finished his sentence in his head, before he pulled the little one close into an embrace. “…believe me, okay? I promise. I will.”
And that was their last night together, because the next day. Ryosuke suddenly needed to go. He urgently needed to pack up and say goodbye. Just like the following months that came and followed, Ryosuke was suddenly out there in the battlefield risking his life for the sake of his fellowmen, for his love of his country and for the safety of his soon to be family-his Yuri. Although Yuri, sweet innocent, little Yuri, he…he was never the same. Not the same as Ryosuke left. Not the same as Ryosuke used to know. Chinen Yuri, he was suddenly turned into someone, who is nothing more and nothing less but a tourniquet of a heart that was once untouched, untainted and pure.
"...R-Ryosuke...Ma-My...Ryo-chan... I'm dirty. I'm sorry, please do...do forgive me..."
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To be continued
Author’s Note: This is not thoroughly polished. X3 Let me try and do something about this once I get home. But as of the moment, I hope this somehow made you feel queasy. By the way, I won’t quit. Not anymore, I guess. You guys just made me realize how much writing is a part of me. Thank you so much, especially to these three friends of mine ( greenxspice, hwangtinglee and yamachiilove16). I love you guys and Thank you.