[YamaChii] Of Bitter Bites and Sweet Kisses
Title: Of Bitter Bites and Sweet Kisses
Author: Ai no Messeji
Pairing: YamaChii
Genre: Romance, Fluff
Summary: Not all things bitter are bad. Sometimes, the bitterest of things are the sweetest when it is simply appreciated and loved.
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“Stupid Valentines, Stupid honmei chokoreto…” sweet, little Chinen Yuri cursed dejectedly, before he took out a neatly wrapped box on the inside of his pant pocket and just stared at it as if he wanted the little box to just burn into ashes and just vanish away into the milky way.
However, even if that has been his goal since this morning, (to torment the box and slaughter it once and for all) he really still (how much he even try) couldn’t throw it away, especially since it’s his hard work-his labor of love. Yet, how much he is proud of his effort and how much he is just happy that he made something for his one and only this Valentine’s Day. The feeling of anxiety, it just creeps through his skin like ice. Because, how much exteriorly perfect his work is and how much it is beautiful on the outside, inside-which is what counts, it is as bitter as when they fight. It is as bitter as when he is on his tantrums. Because his homemade chocolates. It is just like him, especially whenever he is jealous of Yuto-kun and the YamaJima fan services that the two always does, especially during concerts and photo-shoots with JUMP.
And, that’s just that.
The answer, the dilemma, it is all just that.
That’s the main reason why; the chocolates that he made, they are all just as bitter and as disgusting in the mouth, as he is to the eyes, because it is just like him as a lover. It is like a replica of him. After all, whatever he does and whatever extra effort he exerts on, may it be delicacies or items, it all fails. Because all is just like him, it is just like Chinen Yuri-inside and out. That’s why, everything that he does, especially for his lover Yamada Ryosuke, all of it turns into something that is despicable, shameless, and disgusting. And, it’s all the same every year. Nothing ever changes. Just like in every special occasion that there is in their lives, it all turns out into a disaster. It all turns gray. Because, the things that should have been made with lots of love and care. Just like the chocolates that he made for today, which is Valentine’s Day, and every other thing that he made for every special occasion that there is. They are all ruined by details he forgot to keep in mind. He simply just ruins it all by not doing everything that he can to make it, not as perfect, but as special and as beautiful as he can. And most especially, as delicious and as appetizing as he can, just so that it could be something special and worth all the effort that is exerted into it.
Though, ironically speaking, how can he? After all, everything he makes. It all represents him. They all represent Chinen Yuri, and who Chinen Yuri is all the time. Selfish, childish, spoiled, demanding, possessive and plain old just someone that no one will ever want, just because he is tainted that way; he is imperfect that way. That’s why, even if he gave his all, even if he slept none and just tried his best to make something he didn’t even have a clue of how, it will not work out. It will always turn out the same-bitter. He’ll receive nothing but a rotten output, just like his selfish heart-just like him, whom he doesn’t understand why Yamada Ryosuke puts up to and love so very much.
“Stupid, Selfish Yuri, Stupid Ryosuke, Stupid Valentines, and Stupid Bitter Chocolates…I hate you all.” He sniffed as tears gently poured down his black irises. Because at the given moment, well since early morning actually, the little one, he has been feeling depressed and withdrawn. Although if he’ll be honest with his own selfish self, what hurts more in his heart is the part that he feels useless again, because just like every Valentine’s Day, he makes useless chocolates. Useless Chocolates that he throws away every time-every fucking time, because just like every Valentine’s Day, since they both started going out, Yuri has always been afraid-always has been afraid to give his gifts.
Just because…
Just because, it’s not perfect, it’s not perfect for the most perfect person that exists in his life. It’s not perfect for the most perfect puzzle piece that completes his heart. What more, it is just not fitted. Not fitted, especially for the most beloved and the most treasured person in his life. His Yamada Ryosuke, his lover, his best friend and most importantly his world and his everything.
That’s why, just to end his dilemma and just to cut off all his depressing issues, especially of not being a sweet little lover on Valentine’s Day for his Ryosuke. With a bitter smile, Chinen Yuri raised his precious handmade chocolates towards the trash bin and was about to throw it all away in just one go. Although, before it could even reach the mouth of the trash bin, or even the dumps at the matter, familiar hands suddenly took it away from his grasp, making the little one, who’s been undeniably depressed the whole day, feel more dead, unworthy and just plain old embarrassed. Because right now, standing next to him and grinning widely at him is his biggest fear, his biggest dilemma and his sweetest and most loved person in the whole wide universe, his-“…mou, Ryosuke! That’s not yours! Give it back to me! You big fat pig! Give it back to me!” Chinen retorted as he tried his best to reach his, now slightly taller lover’s hands, whom by now is waving the neatly wrapped homemade chocolates above the little one’s head.
Smiling smugly, Ryosuke just stuck his tongue out and slowly but cautiously opened the box with his other free hand, before he took one and-plop, one chocolate down into his mouth, then another one and another one followed suite, making little Yuri, who is now looking much paler than before, turn blue as tears started falling down again. Although now, it wouldn’t stop… it just wouldn’t stop. “…R-Ryo…” sniffling sounds came from Yuri’s lips, before-“…R-Ryo-chan…” a cute little whimper of his name, as small hands suddenly wrapped themselves around Ryosuke’s waist, while the little one just cried. Yuri simply just cried as he begged his lover to stop eating those despicable and horrible chocolates that he made. He just-“Ryosuke, onegaii…it’s not good. It’s not delicious and it’s not worth it for you. So please, Ryo-chan… I beg you…” Chinen whimpered as he held on to his lover’s shirt tight, while burying his tear-stained face onto his Ryosuke’s chest, who by now is just chewing lovingly the homemade chocolates that his little love made for him.
“Unmai, hontou ni unmai~” Ryosuke chanted with a big grin on his face, while he took the last few pieces of the bitter chocolates that Yuri made, and shoved it all to his mouth. “…hoho, hounto ga~ ore no Yuri no honmei chokoreto wa oishii desu yooo~” The chubby cheeked male sang as he chewed and swallowed the last bits of chocolate in his mouth, before he stared at his little one, who by now is burying more his face on the older male’s chest, embarrassed by the compliments his lover is giving. Especially since, he knows that he doesn’t deserve it, at all. “…so cute~” Ryosuke teased as he touched his little one’s red ears, “…my Yuri is meccha kawaii ne~” he hummed as he held his Yuri into a sweet and loving embrace. While Yuri, in return, just held on to his Ryosuke tight, as he enjoys the warmth and the appreciation that his chubby cheeked lover is giving him.
“But Yuri, ne…Thank you, really.” Ryosuke whispered as he kissed his little one’s head. “…Thank you for the sweetest Valentine’s gift, ever. Because you know, for all my life, this is the best Valentine’s gift that I’ve ever had.” Ryosuke confessed that made his little Yuri look at him with curiosity in his tear-filled eyes, “How? I’ve tasted that horrid chocolates and it’s as bitter as I.” Yuri mumbled cutely, that made the older one’s heart skip a beat, while a blush. It slowly started to paint down on those chubby cheeks of his, “….exactly.” Ryosuke gave a huge smile as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. While Yuri, who is more confused now, just gave a cute pout and puffed his cheeks as he demanded a more reasonable and believable explanation.
Yet, before the little one could even say his qualms and demands for his irrational lover through words. Ryosuke, he suddenly leaned down and captured his Yuri’s lips with his, taking the little angel by a surprise as the little one blushed unexpectedly red. “Exactly, just because it’s from my Yuri; after all, whatever comes from my Chinen Yuri is something that comes from…” Ryosuke gently and lovingly took hold of his Yuri’s filled with cuts, scalds and burnt mark hands, “…his hard work, as well as…” Ryosuke then cupped his little one’s face, before he brushed the tears that keeps on flowing down on those loved cheeks of his. “…these, all of these…whatever my Yuri made…how bitter it may be, how burnt it may seem, or how many trials it may have taken my Yuri to perfect, even just the exterior part of whatever he makes…all of these… all of these are my Yuri’s efforts. All of these are made, right here.” Yamada pointed at his little one’s heart. “…all of these are made from my Yuri’s sweet and honest heart. So...no more insecurity issues from my little one, okay? No more sorrow and most especially no more trying to make whatever you do to be perfect, okay? Because…” Yamada laughed as he kissed the forehead of his now red as a tomato, Chinen Yuri. “…I’ll love you all the same. I’ll love everything that is of you with all of me and with everything that I could be. So, no more tears. Because I know that every year you always make something for me, yet… you never have this courage to just give. That’s why every year, I follow you and I dig down the trash for your, made with all of your big heart and love, gifts, because…” a kiss from the lips, “…that’s how important you are to me. That’s how much I love my Chinen Yuri. So, don’t throw your heart away again, okay? Because how burnt it is or how bitter tasting it may be to your liking. Remember, this is your Yama-chan, okay? You know that I’ll always be glad to savor whatever you make with all my heart. After all, nothing is bitter and horrid when it comes to my Chinen Yuri, because as long as it is from my Chii. It’s as perfect and as sweet as it could be, just like its maker, ne?” Ryosuke quipped before a smile, filled with adoration and love, left his lips as he nuzzled his nose with his little one, who in return just stared and smiled at him with an equal amount of adoration and love.
“Un, I promise, Ryo-chan” The little one hummed as he just allowed the warmth of his Ryosuke’s body to meld with his. “I’m glad to hear that. I’m happy. So, no more apprehensions and no more doubts on my Yuri’s side, okay? Because remember that whatever outcome my Yuri makes, I’ll love, because I love you, Chii. I love you very much, so thanks for this. Thanks for the most bitter yet the sweetest and the most special Valentine’s gift that is ever made and ever given to me, ever. Hehe, you’re the best. You are always the best here.” Ryosuke pointed at his heart, before he sealed and finished it all with his loving smile, which made the little one, who’s been trying to hold back the tremendous beating of his heart, capture his Ryosuke’s lips with his for the nth time. “…Happy Valentine’s Day, Ryosuke. I love you.”
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Fin
Author’s Note: A short Valentine’s Day gift from me. I hope everyone will enjoy. Happy Valentine’s Day, everyone.