what the fuck was i thinking??

love tears me up like a demon.

i'm having some trouble just breathing.

we were such dear friends, i missed you.

if we weren't such good friends, i think that i'd hate you.

i thought maybe this time, i'd be the lucky one and i wouldn't get burned.

i got into humboldt and cal poly pomona.

i super syked! i did not think i was going to get into college at all.

goes to show what i know! ( eww i just rhymed.....ew)

i got into CHICO state today.

that's how i roll.

i'm super stressed , right now. i have don't have much time to finish my college apps, if i want to be considered for the early process. i have to finish reading HEART OF DARKNESS, i hate that book with a passion unlike any other. i have to start my project for MODEL UNITED NATIONS, and it's due tomorrow. i have to work on learning the witness ( Read more... )

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i don't like my senior year

my classes are hard

i died my hair, i've got redish skunkness

i quit my job

i am unemployed

i am applying to 4 christian collges

i'm probably going to college in minnesota

yay me

i am now a member of the Antioch High student body. i like it.

life is good:

i got a hair cut

i got a job

i developed a habit

urgh. school is so mediocre. i have no class....8th period. ahhaha,shit i do crack myself up. i'm at Samantha's house and we're str8 chillin' hardcore and doing le mathes DEVOIRS. and its hard and im officially math retarded.

sometimes i dont know why i try. i try to be nice and enthusiastic about things but they usually just end up going to hell. fuck this. next year if people dont have their shit together theyre getting left and thats how its going to be. i was really looking forward to this but o well. atleast i get to go shopping for school clothes soon, i dont like ( Read more... )

shit nothing makes sense. so i won't
think about it,
i'll go with the ignorance. eat, sleep, fuck and flee.
forwards, that's me.
i am full of indifference. what do the old people teach us
but how to die?
what do these hissy fits teach us except how to cry pussy cry?
the futile, the futile it out weighs the beautiful... say anything owns ur ( Read more... )