I took a chance tonight and asked the guy that I like out.  He said no that he didn't see me that way.  Now I am wondering if I should have said anything.  Part of me is glad I took the chance.  Another part of me is wondering if now I may be losing a really great friend because of what I did.  I asked him if things were good between us and he said ( Read more... )

Random 1)   I didn't realize how much it would bother me when you actually moved.  I'm sad but at the same time so happy for you.  I am so glad you found what you needed but I have to lose you here for that to happen.  I know you'll be fine.  I don't think you ever truly realized just how important you were in shaping who I am now and how much you ( Read more... )

I guess maybe I got my hopes to high?   

 UGH!  Why was I that stupid?  Did I actually think anything would come of it?  I truly was that naive!  I don't know who I am more annoyed with myself or you.  I made my intentions clear I guess you being an adult was to much to ask for.

I don't know if I can do this.  I'm tired of feeling this way.  It hurts so bad sometimes.  I don't want to feel this way anymore.  I hate feeling this way!  I want to go back to feeling normal.  Why wont it go away?  Why can't I get past this?  You have! 

So I haven't updated in a while but today is an update kinda day.  I've been growing out my hair for two years and it was getting to about the top of my shoulders.  Well today I cut it all off and have about a quarter of an inch to half an inch of hair on my head.  It feels weird but I'm liking it so far. 

I feel kinda picked on lately.  I think it all steems from some stuff that happened at work.  It just sucks to feel this way and not beable to do anything about it. 

Its just a fucking question.  Seriously its just a simple yes or no.  Yes lets go get something to eat.  Ok where.  Or No I'm not hungry.  Don't just ignore me and think thats cool.  Cause now I'm sitting here hungry and all the places around here to eat are closed because its a Sunday.  How fucking ignorant.  I thought my week was going to go well ( Read more... )

Ok, I was seriously thinking that I wouldn't be going to the pool or the shore this summer cause I was working so much.  But that changed because today I spent a great day off at the pool.  I had fun swam alot and just chilled.  I also picked up some color because I was starting to look pasty and pale.  Everyone was starting to get darker than me ( Read more... )

Its been sometime since I made a half decent post so I'm going to try now.  Hhmmm...lets see.  Work is going well.  Matt is offically our manager now and the changes he is making I'm liking.  Its a bit frustrating because when ever I come in he has moved something.  He keeps telling me to trust him and I am.  So I'm just goin withit.

The ferocity( ( Read more... )