Ah the hours of sick watch.  My mind sadly woke up when I was up taking care of Rayn.  Now he is sleeping again and I am still wandering the apartment.

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The results from my blood tests came back clean, which is encouraging. I have to go back in a month (after my next cycle) for another exam, but I'm hopeful that this means I'm in the clear. I know there is a chance that I have another type of tumor that wouldn't show up on the blood tests, but....good news is still good news. I have been having ( Read more... )

So I find that I am exhausted and sad a lot now. I know that's the side effect of the stress and worry. The other side effects are that I want to eat comfort food (yesterday I really wanted home made mac n' cheese....still want it really), and that I want to buy myself pretty things, little presents really. Thank god for good friends, between ( Read more... )

Today I went to the doctor. I should have gone months ago, but I was scared. One of my breasts has been leaking a tiny bit of fluid. Not much at all, and I only really notice it when I'm wearing a tank top with no bra. Today I went to the doctor. I thought it would just turn into a routine visit. I thought she would laugh and tell me I'm ( Read more... )

MUST SLEEP! I am wide awake. Not sleepy or tired. Simply wide awake. I guess it's time to go lie in bed and just wait for sleep to creep over me. Tomorrow has suckage potential.

I'm very tired today, money issues and a cold are wearing me down. John told me today that we bounced our rent check...phbbbtttt...I called our manager, she said she's fine with us paying her on Friday, but she has to charge us a $75 NSF fee. That means that we can't pay our full rent until next month. We're flat broke again. I'm supposed to go ( Read more... )

I can't sleep....insomnia strikes again. This always happens to me when I have too many thoughts running around in my head. I guess I will at least try to sleep. Lie down, close my eyes, fantasize about something, and hopefully sooner than later drift off. It's nights like this I wish I had a balcony to make a bed on....I'd sleep out under the ( Read more... )