Just to be safe...
Today I went to the doctor. I should have gone months ago, but I was scared. One of my breasts has been leaking a tiny bit of fluid. Not much at all, and I only really notice it when I'm wearing a tank top with no bra. Today I went to the doctor. I thought it would just turn into a routine visit. I thought she would laugh and tell me I'm paranoid. Instead she felt three small lumps in my right breast. Still possibly nothing. She said it's a good chance that it's just hormones. But just to be safe....just to be safe she drew blood. Just to be safe I have to go back in a month. Just to be safe... I am to cut my caffein intake in half for this next month to make sure that it isn't just the caffein affecting my body. I'm a little scared, but mostly sad. I don't know why it made me more sad than scared. Maybe it's the thought of Rayn possibly growing up without a mother. And yes, I know there's a good chance this is nothing, but the possibility must be thought about, and prepared for. Just to be safe... Believe me, I'm a fighter, if I do have breast cancer I will fight it with every means possible. Tonight a little sad, a little scared, and on the verge of tears at every moment, Andrea