I know it's been and insane amount of time since my last entry. A lot has been going on lately and it feels like I'm forever trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. Ironically, it looks as though I may be going back to Olivet. With as much as I had bitched about that school in the past, it may be offering a little glimmer of hope. ( Read more... )

Oh yeah.... go to myspace or xanga I'm probably not going to write on here much if at all my email addy is stevoef@yahoo.com

Wow, it's been a really really long time since I've written. I motsly update my Myspace. I'll sometimes update my xanga site but not much anymore ( Read more... )

I think that I have decided that work really shouldn't bother me. It's only work. I'm not going to be stuck making pizzas for the rest of my life. I'm not trying to impress my boss anymore than I already might have. Stress and worry and fear of losing ones job is what they want. It gives them power over their employees. I'm tired being caught ( Read more... )

The false security that had once surrounded my mind in a cloak of warm ignorance has caught fire and burned to the ground leaving my thoughts and dreams scorched by the harsh reality of lifes' darkest secret. There is and never will be an escape from the choices and responsibilities that life throws inconsiderately in my face. One is always ( Read more... )

Numb ( Read more... )

OK. So it's been a while since I've written. Nothing too exciting has been happening though. I've gotten a job a Chicago Dough Co. There's nothing too special about it. One of the opening managers told me today that he thought that I was only 18 or 19 years old instead of 23 ( Read more... )

A moment in passing.
Time slows to a dull grind.
The sound deadens the air.
Lonely now.
The only sounds are the ones I make with my feet.
There's only walking towards the horizon with all of my uncertainties.
Excitement... Climax... Letdown...
There are only uncertain dreams in an uncertain life.

Sorry for the delay. Lots has happened including work and more work.

By the way... Don't look now but I think that Steven has lost his mind again. No one should ever listen to him.

Time to dredge up settled memories and make the water cloudy.

Later

Last week went by very quickly. I took two days off of work in order to go home and get my things (dresser, shelf, etc.). My parents drove their truck up and I drove my van. Thursday was a long, hot day. Needless to say Wes and I are moved in and the apartment is feeling more like I'm supposed to be there ( Read more... )