1. I do not always have to be right.
2. People sometimes just want sympathy.
3. They also are not entirely stupid.
4. I kind of need to do my school assignments because I might just learn something from them.
5. Just skating by on everything is not a life I want to live.

After a bunch of computer problems, eeking out a B in Algebra for the year, and actually completing the Phys. Ed. final challenge [running 'round the track nonstop for twelve minutes solid], I've managed to jump into summer with my sanity relatively in tact. Yay for me!

For Memorial Day weekend, my parents, sister, and  I did the family thing and ( Read more... )

Damndest thing, promises
broken slowly, piece by piece
never a moment of realization
never a rush of release

And it's funny when you think
of that, because you know and you can see
the glass it shatters, promises
falling, not really free

Starts a little, then a lot
building up, you look away
don't pretend to not notice or care
you aren't cruel in that way.

Or ( Read more... )

Hey, now. What's with everybody getting sick? :D We need to get better, everyone~! Life's too beautiful!

They've decided not to give my aunt any more chemo treatments; doctor-speak for, "You're fucked; head to Tahiti." That isn't what gets me. She hasn't had any good experiences! Her boyfriend dumped her on the day of their goddamn wedding, and she ( Read more... )

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Why does it feel like I've lost trust in everybody, when really they've lost trust in me? Am I trying to damn myself?

Why do I feel like crying?

Why can't I make myself stop?

There's a poem spinning inside me, using the threads which are pulling loose from the fabric of my life. How did I get this deep in?

Kiki, Hales, Stacy, Lauren. You deserve all ( Read more... )

We had to put one of our dogs down. I'm not really an animal person, but she's been with us since we were six. I was petting her earlier, and when I went to get up she put her paw on my hand, like she didn't want me to leave or something.

So...yeah.

My perfect cousin comes down today, and I'm banned from the computer. Technically. I'll find some way ( Read more... )

I'm not procrastinating...I'm not procrastinating...I'm not...I'm not.

I am.

Damn. Help.

Terrible fight with mom.

To sum up: awful day, awful mood, awful life up to this point. Maybe I'll grow up to be one of those intellectual losers Dad always talks about, after all. I swore I'd never, but after today, the possibilities for my existance's suck factor are endless.

I said I'd never be anorexic, either, and look how that turned out.

I hate ( Read more... )

Hauled my sorry sick rear to school today in order to take a trip to some literary competition a few towns away. Wrote an essay, got third out of four places. Yay ( Read more... )

I've got to get myself together. Been slacking off at school for no particular reason, so now I'm all stressed and feeling like a stupid, lazy idiot. No reason for this behavior. Restless sleep is another symptom, but my overall mood is fine ( Read more... )