Sometimes, I worry myself.
Title: Where Did I Go Wrong?
Pairing(s): Arthur/Merlin.
Warnings: Character death ( main character death ), angst, a mention of sex. The most depressing piece I've written so far, by a long shot.
Spoiler(s): Vague ones, but nothing major.
Word count: 2561.
Rating: PG-13.
Summary: I don't really want to give too much away, so I'll just say it's Merlin ( Read more... )
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And his death!You've brought tears to my eyes with that!It was so tragic, yet so beautiful in a sad way.
I especially loved the ending.It brings so much hope after such an angsty end.
Thanks you very much for posting this!
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I just have this odd feeling that Arthur may well know. Or, if he doesn't, that he finds out next series but doesn't say anything because of Uther. I also hope he realises he loves Merlin, but the BBC are cruel, so I highly doubt that one.
I'm sorry I made you cry. =[
I feel bad now.
Well, I figured after I killed Arthur and made Merlin depressed, I should put something hopeful in there.
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I just feel bad for making people cry.
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(yeah i have to express my feelings with smileys, yeah.)
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Haha, that's fine. I figured some hope was needed after all the angst, y'know?
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This fic was so moving... I loved it. You handled the first person persective amazingly and the lack of capitalisation worked incredibly well! Like it really was a reflection.
oh and I really loved this line "we were never friends - we were always something more than that, i know." So true.
I'm glad you ended it on a positive note... It would have been too sad otherwise!
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Aww, thank you. x3
I'm really glad you enjoyed it.
Well, it's a dramtic monologue ( which I still say is literature speak for rambly as anything, but there you go ), and it's basically thought processes, which is why it's a little jumpy and stuff. 'Cause it's Merlin's mind going from one thing to another. It made sense in my head. x3
Aw, I know. I wrote that in there because that's how I see it. They say they aren't friends, but on one level they are. But on another, there relationship is just more than that. A lot more.
Y'know?
Maybe not.
Aw, I know. I'm sorry about that. This idea just attacked me from nowhere, and I just started writing. And I decided that it should end on a positive note because otherwise it would depress the hell out of me, too. x3
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lol, well you do rambly as anything very well :P The jumpiness of thoughts really did come through ;)
And yeah, so true. That's why I liked that line.. It describes them perfectly!
Don't be sorry!! But if you want to apologise by writing more, I'm not saying no :D
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I really do need to start chapter ten...
Aw, thank you. Yeah, it's meant to. I love writing dramatic monologues, 'cause it means I can literally write as it comes to me. I just usually can't think of any ideas for them, so this...yeah. This. x3
It does. Bless them.
Haha.
Well...
I may or may not be working on some crack right now, that may or may not also be m-preg.
And if you don't like m-preg, there may or may not be crack based on another fairytale floating around somewhere, and there may or may not be something involving Pokemon.
...
Oops, did I just give that away?
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This is just so... so real. It really is an incredible monologue, it carries so much of Merlin's personality, and the way he is reflecting on Arthur... on their relationship, on everything.... I am again left speechless.
The idea of the spell to bring them all back was amazing, and I loved the references to things like Morgana leaving - or her evilness in any case - Gwen and Lancelot's affair and the thing with Freya, it was all amazing. I loved the idea that Arthur always knew and shocked Merlin with it.
The love between the two of them, well, really of Merlin for Arthur... wow. It's a palpable thing, I can virtually taste it. Just wow. I can't... I just can't even speak right now. So, so powerful. Heartbreaking.
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Aw, thank you. I'm really glad you enjoyed it.
Speechless? Really?
I mean, I just wrote literally as it came to me, and since it's a dramatic monologue that jumpiness works well, because it is Merlin's thought processes. Y'know?
Well, I like the reincarnation idea, and I figured that was a way for it to actually come about. It made sense at the time.
I decided to throw random episodes in there, yeah. I figured if it was Merlin reflecting, he'd reflect on all those things. And honestly? I think Arthur does know. Maybe it's just me.
I'm really glad you think so. It didn't actually take me all that long, because I did just type as each bit came into my head. I'd say it was fun to write, but that's not the write word for it. Interesting, maybe, to explore their relationship more.
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Yeah, you can just see the thoughts running through his brain like that, and... just... yeah,it was incredible real. I may or may not have it saved on Word for later. ;) Seriously though, wow.
I like it too! That's a great way for it to come back.
Yeah, I mean, the episodes are emotionally strong stuff, they are major points in the characters lives, of course they're going to think back on them. Hmmm, I'm not sure... I don't think the writers mean for him to, but I think the character that they have created, Arthur would know. Of course, I can't go with an easy yes or no, it's what made me so good at GCSE RE ;)
It's great that you wrote it like that, and that you could really shows just how well you understand Merlin. LOL yeah, it's like someone asked my mum once whether when she disected a human body was fun, it's not quite the word. ;) It was intriguing though, and heartbreaking.
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Yeah, that's why I like this style. I've started yet another one, actually. A bit different again, but yeah.
I do like how it makes it seem more real. Like, you can actually see someone thinking it that way. It means I can set myself down and just try and figure out what they'd be thinking, y'know? Maybe not. I just really love the style and how much it allows me to explore the characters.
I knooooow. Reincarnation, FTW. x3
Yeah, I thought that'd work well, and aparently it has. xD
I think he would, too. That's why I wrote that he knew. I don't know why, I just don't think he is as dim as he seems.
I don't understand him that well, not really. This is an older, more mature version of Merlin, I think.
Yeah, it's weird. I like writing this style and yeah, I enjoy it, but writing depressing stuff is never fun.
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*CRIES SOME MORE*
*IS STILL CRYING*
you let someone comfort you. i held you and you clung to me like i was keeping you alive, WOW.
I don't know why I'm doing this to me today reading all the sad stuff ;)
But it's awesome, thank u!
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Aw, thank you. I am glad that you liked it.
Before my exams, I went through quite an angsty patch, as you can probably see...
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