041. Ersatz - April/May - Rambles & Snippets - Fiction[NET]
She was replacement, that's all she was. A substitute in the mourning of a loss, because he needed to justify himself to exist by dating someone. That last comment of being gay with Ron from Malfoy had crossed the line, so he had swept her into his arms after that last Quidditch match and kissed her, she had bended into him and been his immediately, after all these years of waiting.
It was just until someone better came alone. Although he had been glad to get rid of Cho, he had almost missed the feeling of...being taken, so to say. It made him feel wanted, he felt at home with responsibility under his belt, and she was a whole lot of it for him.
He was quite attracted to her though of course, and she was someone he could relate it.
It made it a lot easier as well that she was the little sister of his best friend, because she already knew everything and their holidays would be able to be spent together. It was all quite convenient actually. So it was almost a pity that she was just a substitute, and a rather inferior one at that.
Oh well, she would do for now.
All he was, secretly, was a cover up. A red herring. If she was seen with him, then they wouldn't suspect that she was with someone else now would they? Not that she exactly had another boyfriend, they were very strict on the terms that they were not dating.
They were simple the property of each other, and him seeing his property pretend to be the girlfriend of another guy set his blood boiling...
He hid it well, but she saw an inkling of it at times and it filled her with warmth nothing could compare to, because she was wanted by him, and that’s all that mattered.
Pretending and acting to love another though was almost worth it, especially when she closed her eyes as she lay in his lap, him patting her hair, and was able to pretend it was another’s hands instead. It made her feel wanted and craved, even though she really only cared about one of them. The other was just convenient, and it made her lover so cute as well when he got all huffy about it.
Still, it was clear whom she really loved, and soon her lover would do his deed and she’d be able to be his publicly, and their whole world would come crashing down on themselves, and she would laugh…
Harry was with Ginny as if to prove something or to validate himself, whereas she was only with him to hide her real relationship with Malfoy. All they were, as such, were a substitute for what they really needed and really craved.
Teenage years were such a mess, but this deal had worked out quite nicely. Almost too nicely…would it last?
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It was just until someone better came alone. Although he had been glad to get rid of Cho, he had almost missed the feeling of...being taken, so to say. It made him feel wanted, he felt at home with responsibility under his belt, and she was a whole lot of it for him.
He was quite attracted to her though of course, and she was someone he could relate it.
It made it a lot easier as well that she was the little sister of his best friend, because she already knew everything and their holidays would be able to be spent together. It was all quite convenient actually. So it was almost a pity that she was just a substitute, and a rather inferior one at that.
Oh well, she would do for now.
All he was, secretly, was a cover up. A red herring. If she was seen with him, then they wouldn't suspect that she was with someone else now would they? Not that she exactly had another boyfriend, they were very strict on the terms that they were not dating.
They were simple the property of each other, and him seeing his property pretend to be the girlfriend of another guy set his blood boiling...
He hid it well, but she saw an inkling of it at times and it filled her with warmth nothing could compare to, because she was wanted by him, and that’s all that mattered.
Pretending and acting to love another though was almost worth it, especially when she closed her eyes as she lay in his lap, him patting her hair, and was able to pretend it was another’s hands instead. It made her feel wanted and craved, even though she really only cared about one of them. The other was just convenient, and it made her lover so cute as well when he got all huffy about it.
Still, it was clear whom she really loved, and soon her lover would do his deed and she’d be able to be his publicly, and their whole world would come crashing down on themselves, and she would laugh…
Harry was with Ginny as if to prove something or to validate himself, whereas she was only with him to hide her real relationship with Malfoy. All they were, as such, were a substitute for what they really needed and really craved.
Teenage years were such a mess, but this deal had worked out quite nicely. Almost too nicely…would it last?
<--- 040. Help || 042. Toast --->