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Not a lack of presence, just a lack of thought, energy & of control.

I HATE MOVING.

No tears, just memories, but somehow that's not enough to satisfy the deeper twists and turns that constantly occur inside. I'm standing on the edge of depression and looking down into it; I can't let myself fall again.

& I won't.Through writing thoughtless ( Read more... )

This isn't right.
My mind has shifted off a little. ChangeCHANGEchange; you truly kill me, emotionally. I'm lost in a trance of my own thoughts, wishing I would disappear under the influence of a magician. I have yet to know true happiness on my stage, or not have to watch the fragile pieces of a dream dangle on string above me ( Read more... )

It washes the sleep right out of your body & leaves you breathless. You feel like you could do it forever; you never want to stop. When you push yourself to go past the limit, you feel even more proud of yourself. With the sun just awakening, you feel as if you could overcome anything. And, that's a very powerful emotion. One that I can't even ( Read more... )

Ken Jennings = GOD.

He has everything I'd look for in a guy. *Blushes*. Brains (like WHOAAAA), he's cute, and funny. & just...ahhh!

KEN, I LOVE YOU!!

(these next six weeks of repeats are going to kill me...)

& is it right, Butterfly, that they like you better framed and dried?

Dear Subjugation,

Oh, how you feed the beast within me. I've been starving for you for over a year. Seven years ago, I never even saw you coming my way. Two years ago, and I never thought I would let you eat so deep inside of me. What happened between last year and now? I have no clue. I suppose I lost you, my self-control; I lost you. How, when ( Read more... )

I'm at a loss for words. I'm at a loss for thoughts. I'm at a loss for emotions. I'm at a loss, period.

I don't know this feelingIt's like this ( Read more... )

I just got back from Caroline's. Awww! It was so sad! Yeah, we had to say good-bye; for good. She's leaving tomorrow for Quebec & Ottawa for that francophone university thingy. Oh dear. She's been such a great friend to me, and I just hate leaving people like this. She gave me a bunch of pictures from her birthday party; man, oh, man, that's ( Read more... )

Well, last night was quite the night. My friends all took me out to dinner. Yay!! They got me this huge BC flag and they all signed it. Karl escorted me in there with flowers and the whole shabang. Haha, people stared. Everyone came. Everyone except Marie (work) and Caroline (life-guarding course). But it was still a great evening, nonetheless. ( Read more... )