11/11/11 was my two-year anniversary with my job. As of 11/7/13, I am officially a flight attendant for mainline American Airlines. With that transfer comes new, yet familiar obstacles: getting on my feet financially (I've gone three months without an income during training), finding a new place to live, and growing up in general ( Read more... )

It's impossible to forget that you exist. And damn it, I miss you... nostalgic or not.

That the slightest occurrence can make me feel this empty is, for a lack of better words, pathetic.

Tonight I feel like shit and very lonely.

I've gathered items from NYC, Tennessee, Ohio, and even Germany to create a suitable gift. I just hope I'll get the chance to give it to him.

He said it, and I agree: nobody else can give me the feelings I felt with him.

:(

it feels like a losing battle. sometimes, i'll receive a correspondence that gives me hope, and as quickly as that hope is given, is as quickly as that hope is taken away :/

strangers.

who care about each other.

but who won't admit it.

those dreams that rely on other people in order to succeed, are more likely to fail.

i'm trying to remember that as i move forward.

don't worry about being forgotten, disregarded, or ignored...

...it will only hold you back.

i'm a mess often. an emotional mess. and i get frustrated often, too :/

but i'm still alive, and still kicking. i'm

christmas day, he told me he missed me and that he wanted to be with me. and a few weeks later, i've been cut out of his life and all contact has been severed.

my gut is wrenched, and i get anxious easily. my heart feels as though it has sunken deep within my chest. i'm sad, and i'm depressed.