somewhere in June last year, a few months after my last detailed post, Diana had decided that our relationship was officially over, and that i needed to move out, meaning back to my parents which is where ive been since last summer. i honestly never gave a second thought towards coming back here after i had left. i thought when she agreed we were ( Read more... )

Diana has more or less, abandoned me.

while not that much time, relatively, has passed since my last post, certainly much has happened ( Read more... )

so, I moved on from macaroni grille, to a place in palmyra called texas roadhouse, but that didn't last any longer than romanos did, and so now im currently a floating between dish and the kitchen at funks, which is also in palymra, right down the road from dukes. matter of fact, dustin, a bartender from when I worked at dukes, has been bartending ( Read more... )

ive deleted a few entries up until this point ( Read more... )

the only choices im capable of understanding are my own, which always instigates the question within me: how does one define a single ripple in an infinite sea of infinite ripples? why would one do that? well, the answer to that is always, why not, but the truth desired is always what choice to make, out of limitless possibilities ( Read more... )

im officially dead on the inside.

i feel so alone.

you cannot deny that all other living organisms and lifeless objects interact and create their own reality and all of which overlaps one another into one infinite singularity. The only thing people deny is that no one is in control of anything. The universe is what dictates the state of your existence. You cannot even prove you have free will, or ( Read more... )

I feel so restless, that I literally cannot sit still, yet Im absolutely exhausted...